Grandma – Day 362, Never Give Up On Your Dreamz

I miss you,
As well as all the hugs I used to give you,
Doing anything I can to make you feel beautiful within a family that would not forgive you.
If you were never here to begin with,
I wouldn’t be here using a pen as my pistol,
Taking my shot at a life far from abysmal…
The only Grandmother I’ve ever known!
The only one who wasn’t ashamed to hold,
Me as the mistake I was labeled as,
By a mother who wouldn’t love me as her own.
So,
Here I am all alone.
Wishing you were here,
To wipe away my tears,
As I fall deep into an abyss I’ve made a home,
For a soul done with its search for another to console me.
The day I die,
I know you’ll be there at the gates waiting to hold me…