"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Sunnier days have been looming ahead as I sit down and pour out my anxiety on to a notepad (unfortunately digital as I prefer the real thing, but too lazy I am today). I've been able to smile more regardless of any tumultuous situation. After trying to speed through life in my past days, knowing... Continue Reading →
All the noise stopped when I chipped a tooth pulling teeth to bring It to an end.This,Vortex of smoke I've spun inside of for too many years of my life,Chipping away at my flesh!Piece by piece.Making sure the torture is painful and slow.But,Not once do I wince as I endure the sting of Hell.As numb... Continue Reading →
Some people have so much money and material.Why?So busy distracting themselves from internal pain torturing them daily.Some are just addicted to drugs,While some are enthralled by a glossy image imprisoning their true character in a cell we,Ourselves,Tightly clutch in the middle of our palms.A cell we pray gives us every answer we seek in a... Continue Reading →
New age lies used to clutter my mind until I,Realized the truth.How most people willingly sugarcoat their bitter hearts with sweet inaccuracies when telling their story,Just to feel good for the moment!As they close their eyes before things become visually gory…I would know,Because,I've done it back when I didn't have a backbone when confronting each... Continue Reading →
Seductive like the devil's kiss.The nightmare every man wants to have.Her glare,A ray of bliss… Until her make-up drips,And drips back onto the bathroom sink after each swipe.Scars reveal.Wounds,Bright red,Bleeding out the Ugly she refused to confront and deal… They say Satan has the brightest smile,And hers lit up the entire sky.Yet,Inside?As dark as the... Continue Reading →
Lost.Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.How do I break through?Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,As I inhale another breath and keep calm.Opening my palm!To receive blessings I've rejected for way too long.All for a... Continue Reading →
I've burnt bridges,Without ever looking back!So that I can drink water from a pond where the small fish swim in.Never better than the next man!Nor have I ever planned to be since I was born by a force,Omniscient,Egging me to crack out of my shell to swallow any pill killing,Everything I thought would incinerate me... Continue Reading →
On some days,There are no words.Just,A thought you don’t want to have,Along a ball of angst ballooning inside of your chest,Until it pops!And,Takes you down with it,As hope begins deflating slowly,But surely.The one moment your demons find worthy to dance together,Hold hands and celebrate… Yet,Their celebration ends when you decide to shut off their stereo... Continue Reading →
Mistakes were made,But,I have a question.Does it mean I'm barred from repentance,A chance to be accountable and make up for my reckless nature?Or,Do I have an opportunity to escape what is destined to break first!Before it all collapses on me… A Glasshouse was never meant to stay in one piece.Each wall is transparent enough to... Continue Reading →
At least,I didn't lose my hands,My feet,Nor any other part of my body. At least,I didn't lose my pen,My journal,Nor my mind. Thank God!That,All I lost were ten dollars and not,My precious life… A life I care more for,Now,As I pay for the mistake I've wrought with endless tears falling from my,Eyes…
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