Expired!

The past me is outdated.Stuck having dinners with Mary Jane and His demons while feeling jaded.Jaded by the race against time and how unworthy he has been to ever be embraced,By anyone as His inner child cries for love He yearns to give away... It's a shame,Really...Because,He's beyond amazing!Carries many flaws,But,Believe me,He's begot a state... Continue Reading →

Numbskullz

"Numbskull" is the result of a fool way too attentive to those who despise their existence and,I find myself dealing with such circumstance.More often than not,My skull feels numb all throughout its left side and,Makes me wonder why I even hurt myself by chasing those who let me slip from the edge while watching me... Continue Reading →

I Dine Alone

Thoughts I write up,Like day jobs and strike one.Batter's up,While I'm boxed in,On a search for diamonds without a need to buy one.I'm shining!Glass cups to my lightbulb while I light blunts.I'm dining alone with many knives,A,Will to survive with demons in mind,Who believe I should die!Regardless of all my beliefs in Christ... But,I let... Continue Reading →

Who Am I To Ever Love?

You know,I accept it.That I'm not worthy of love from another.I don't even care,I just,Want to play a video game without feeling guilty.Want to take a walk through a garden without past demons trying to fill me with doubt.I just,Want to look into my mirror and be fine with what's there,Entirely.Not just one or two... Continue Reading →

Loved?

Loved.To be loved,Is all I desire.My only question is,If I truly did love myself,Would I be feeling this way in the first place? I only ask because,Remembering the last time I've heard those magical three words our hearts melt over is quite difficult.Not a single thought bubble sprouting above my head with a memory,No image... Continue Reading →

Yeah, Right. “I’m Not Alone.”

So weird,Writing this piece during my recovery.Because,I've lived a life rife with mistakes I'm trying to right before I'm dead,In a grave,With no chance to rebuttal each critic of my existence.And,I can't use a voice I've seemed to have burned out by belching complaint after complaint from the top of my lungs.All over anger and... Continue Reading →

Raw Paper

Imagine being the guy no one reaches out to.The guy everybody ignores anytime there's a holiday,Even if it is his birthday too.How awful it feels to be forgotten.How daunting it is to be wrong in the eyes of every who used to love you… Heartbreaking,Yes!But,That's me.A reality I've had to let sink and fill my... Continue Reading →

Riddles, Riddles, Riddles…

Riddle me this,Riddle me that,Goes the monster in my mind.Besetting my soul until I manifest my need for love into a burning blunt,As I roll down further through the hottest depths of this inferno I've created unintentionally.But,On some days,God tames that beast salivating for my flesh,Like tonight.A subtle growl here and there,Yet,My lips are sealed... Continue Reading →

Dear Life

Smiles coerced by a need for change.Although every walk is heavy with each ankle anchored by pain,Patience takes possession of each step taken forward.What other choice do I have,But,To be devoured by silence with a voice box cluttered with anger towards the man I am,This very moment?Alone,Without a shoulder to hold as I vigilantly seek... Continue Reading →

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