"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Happy New Years! Been a rough one, hasn't it? So much hostility. Countless deaths and wretched acts of war. Hidden agendas making themselves known the more we tear down reality's fourth wall. But! We survived. Blessed I am to sit here this very moment writing out what's been tearing me apart for the past five... Continue Reading →
Another morning waking up doing what I did yesterday.Taking hits enduring all the pain while I circle around till I find a better way.A renegade since day one while I penetrate a state of mind keeping me in my lesser ways.They say it's impossible!They say for me to change is improbable,By being what you've been!But,All... Continue Reading →
As a single man without anyone by your side,You're pretty much fucked.No one cares for your pain as you're labeled another bust.When you're laid out on the ground from every hit you've taken,You're just a floor matt others walk over while they hide their faces.Too ashamed to see a soul they've hurt by never giving... Continue Reading →
I still love you,Believe it or not.There are still moments I imagine kissing the softest cheeks my lips have laid upon.Your smile still glitters in my mind no matter how dark my thoughts of you become.Sure,A bit of lust may enter as I live remote from the human touch!But…You're more than that to me,Even till... Continue Reading →
Been so full of fear lately,For reason I cannot explain yet.But,Can I eliminate it without knowing every answer to each question I ask myself way,Way too often?I only ask because,I've been trying to find them!And,Have continously failed,To no avail,Knowing that I've need help along my way...Reaching out my hand to others just,To watch more of... Continue Reading →
Been a while since I've sat down,Ate some food and thought about my life without a screen in my face to help me through my meal.But,What other choice do I have?Can't force anyone to love you.Can't force anyone to make sure you are okay.Can't force anyone to smile towards your face instead of laughter over... Continue Reading →
Hits,Diamonds,Home base.Watch your circle change,How it breaks with the way you spin your story.Most gravitate to those who drop jewels,But,Few are brave enough to pick them up from the ground and shine when it’s pouring.I got thrown a curve ball when I decided I would mind mine,While left stranded after basing my peace off the... Continue Reading →
Maybe that is why I've been having such a hard time.Feelings of rejection by an entire world I often despise,Yet,Love with all of my heart no matter how much I cry.I need someone to hug,But,I'm just not loved enough.What does one do when in need of the human touch,While labeled unworthy of it all because... Continue Reading →
The past me is outdated.Stuck having dinners with Mary Jane and His demons while feeling jaded.Jaded by the race against time and how unworthy he has been to ever be embraced,By anyone as His inner child cries for love He yearns to give away… It’s a shame,Really…Because,He’s beyond amazing!Carries many flaws,But,Believe me,He’s begot a state... Continue Reading →
Rest.It slips away from your mind when you're addicted while lonely and stressed.No longer is it in your grasp until you let go of what burns in your soul to no end.Crisped insidiously by a joint lit by the pain in my chest!But,It's time for a new story to be authored while repenting for each... Continue Reading →
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