Episodes of rage take over when sober from love.Drunk by the thought of her for so long,But,It's time to show a different me.A different flow of rhythm where I only act up on a stage for the world to see.No fear while I drop bombs from a palm deterring naysayers from my life,Praying everyone survives... Continue Reading →
Hot Headz
Living inside of your own head is like,Dipping your feet in a lake of fire while you watch them violently dissolve.An inevitable implosion a Hot-Head cannot prevent,Without a will to move forward instead of dwelling on a past already behind them…But,What is home if I'm not welcomed anywhere I go?The only way is up after... Continue Reading →
I Don’t Belong, But I’m Here – Freewrite #41
Sunnier days have been looming ahead as I sit down and pour out my anxiety on to a notepad (unfortunately digital as I prefer the real thing, but too lazy I am today). I've been able to smile more regardless of any tumultuous situation. After trying to speed through life in my past days, knowing... Continue Reading →
Why Me?
"Why does it have to be me?" The question I ask when I walk down a street,Where my feet never feel welcomed.A beast in the eyes of each person I pass while I smile with a piece of me broken.And,Only I know what rattles inside of a mind I pray for,For the moment… No one... Continue Reading →
Ain’t Mad Anymore!
All the noise stopped when I chipped a tooth pulling teeth to bring It to an end.This,Vortex of smoke I've spun inside of for too many years of my life,Chipping away at my flesh!Piece by piece.Making sure the torture is painful and slow.But,Not once do I wince as I endure the sting of Hell.As numb... Continue Reading →
Put The Cell Away
Some people have so much money and material.Why?So busy distracting themselves from internal pain torturing them daily.Some are just addicted to drugs,While some are enthralled by a glossy image imprisoning their true character in a cell we,Ourselves,Tightly clutch in the middle of our palms.A cell we pray gives us every answer we seek in a... Continue Reading →
Leaves of Peace
Finally!Finally,Finally.Surrounded by the kind of nature that loves to tell a story.Leaves of paper bound to a spine strong enough to endure what broke mine.Reminders of what life can be like if I just,Walk away from what wants to efface my existence on a planet I've grown weary of.All I wonder is,What's next?While my hands... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 5 – The Final Act
New age lies used to clutter my mind until I,Realized the truth.How most people willingly sugarcoat their bitter hearts with sweet inaccuracies when telling their story,Just to feel good for the moment!As they close their eyes before things become visually gory…I would know,Because,I've done it back when I didn't have a backbone when confronting each... Continue Reading →
Caved In
Seductive like the devil's kiss.The nightmare every man wants to have.Her glare,A ray of bliss… Until her make-up drips,And drips back onto the bathroom sink after each swipe.Scars reveal.Wounds,Bright red,Bleeding out the Ugly she refused to confront and deal… They say Satan has the brightest smile,And hers lit up the entire sky.Yet,Inside?As dark as the... Continue Reading →
Lost In My Mind
Lost.Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.How do I break through?Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,As I inhale another breath and keep calm.Opening my palm!To receive blessings I've rejected for way too long.All for a... Continue Reading →