Such An Ugly Photo – Day 237, Never Give Up On Your Dreamz

I don’t believe I’ll ever experience true love,
Again.
Maybe,
I’m bound to die alone,
Withering away inside of a casket pigeons try their best to pick at.
But,
I can’t help it.
Lost,
Is the art of catching a woman’s attention.
Still the same man as I used to be,
Yet,
Not as handsome as others found me years ago.
What happened?…
Why am I no good?…
Earlier today,
I read a story about a man who unfortunately murdered,
And,
Raped the corpse of a woman he didn’t know,
Returning back home to the woman he was dating at the time.
As bad as I felt for her poor family as well as her devastating passing,
I wondered,
“How does a monster like that attract anyone at all?”
And,
Here I am,
Doing my best to be as sweet as I can be.
Staying out of trouble knowing how wrong it is to hurt others…
If anything,
I’m busy hurting myself,
Everyday,
In multiple ways.
Over-eating,
Not getting enough sleep.
Beating myself up internally for being too cowardly,
To ask others out on a date.
“What a disappointment…”
But,
I digress.
Because,
A monster I refuse to become.
Regardless of my lack of intimacy,
I’d rather die alone,
Instead of hurting anyone else…
Being hurt is something I know too well…