"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Enjoying life without an audience has been tumultuous lately.Why?Knowing how lonely I like to be,I find myself around more people while having a harder time to breathe.Sort of like,Demons closing in on me,Without a weapon to push back an attack only I can see,Inside of my head.How exhausting...How exhausted I am,To even wake and pick... Continue Reading →
Multilingual,Yet there's something about American soil that strips you of everything that makes you colorful.What started out as spanish became spanglish,Then english I was verbally trained to use as a weapon towards freedom I've never had before."Callate la boca!"Mom would yell at me for having any thought of my own.It wasn't until I understood what... Continue Reading →
I don't believe I'll ever experience true love,Again.Maybe,I'm bound to die alone,Withering away inside of a casket pigeons try their best to pick at.But,I can't help it.Lost,Is the art of catching a woman's attention.Still the same man as I used to be,Yet,Not as handsome as others found me years ago.What happened?...Why am I no good?...Earlier... Continue Reading →
Thunderstorms are relaxing for a heart hardened by an infinite amount of rocks thrown.Being pelted by unwarranted barbs on a daily basis,Was enough to numb my soul to the pain.Barbs thrown by those who loved me for every show I put on until the curtains closed.Those comments I over-heard when standing on the other side,Whether... Continue Reading →
A "normie,"A clown,And,A gay girl walk into a bar.The clown,Along the gay girl sat away from the normie who would rather sit alone while writing a bar.Both were examining his posture,His choice of apparel,And,Were appalled.How he didn't look like they did without being close-minded to what differed from the law,Of a land he never thought... Continue Reading →
"Normie!"Is what I was called on my way out of a bar,How pretentious.Obnoxious.I thought,With all that's going on in a world going cold,Heartwarming it would be to interact with a world that prides itself on kindness!How thoughtless.To insult me without knowing who I am,What my views are darkened by certain hues marred by monsters with... Continue Reading →
Sore.Exhausted.From carrying weight on two shoulders trembling over an extended lay-off,From caring about herself.She tries to smile,But,How can she when it's been years since she's been called beautiful by anyone?And.What really tears me apart is,How enchanting her pupils are,As black as a blackberry is purple.Like,The only Tulip blossoming in a field of grass turning beige... Continue Reading →
Sadness.Sadness is that half-empty glass of water giving life to a waning heart dry of all kinds of love spoken.That half-empty glass of water you'll never choke on regardless of how it's poured in.Into an esophagus sore from crying for hours on end,With bulging eyes getting too tired to open.And,I know it all too well.Because,Because,I'm... Continue Reading →
Sunlight's shining upon me!But,From a magnifying glass I can't see.Heat-seeking a man working with his plan B,Instead,Of a past dream to live a life of innocence.Yet,None of us never had a chance to,Have we?A hard pill to swallow.But,It's a pill that won't leave you hollow,The same way your decisions will while choosing to wallow,About what... Continue Reading →
Fresh mulch permeates the air,As new seeds are planted into a mind,Where ideas are desperate to germinate.Staying stuck in the weeds is no longer suitable for a soul thirsty to feel something new.Something besides dry humor,And,A plate of burgers along french fries while watching whatever the algorithm decides to feed it that night.No more city... Continue Reading →
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