What am I doing?
I have no idea.
I’m just another human,
Dripping fluids,
From the corners of my eyes during nights where I feel useless.
Like,
Right about now…
Where’s my shoulder to lean on?
Why is this boulder so freakishly strong?
Why couldn’t I have been mightier than I am now,
Instead of feeling what I’m feeling while I’m dealing with these thoughts?
Darker than the middle of my pupils.
All I see at the moment,
Is a void my inner-child’s floating in over my refusal,
To smile any time I know I should…
But,
I hope He understands some day.
How hard it is to move forward without anybody’s touch as I face,
A world colder than it should be.
A world that,
Took me on a rollercoaster ride full of pain,
Bumping on each side of the seat while I hold on to what would be,
My solution for this moment…
A pen and a piece of paper where I seek atonement,
For my sins hoping,
They would be absolved by God knowing,
How I never wanted this kind of life in the first place…
I digress.
I guess,
It’s the battle I was given,
Written in His book without authority to peek within,
With only one job.
To walk through a path wrought for me,
And,
Me alone while I do my best to sing a song,
Every bird around me can chirp along to.
As I sit back,
With a smile I’m trying to find,
Trying my best to enjoy the view,
Past a warzone where the world has yet to go screws-loose…
m3l0dicverse 
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