Love That Never Dies – Day 51, Never Give Up On Your Dreamz

Silence.
What I once thought wasn’t necessary,
Became part of my solution for a transformation I had undergone.
Yet,
My inner voice has been shouting loud enough to muffle out and blurry visions of a brighter future in my mind.
Nights like these,
Where all you here are raindrops drip at ease,
Makes me tell myself to shut up so that I can get some sleep.
Finally…

But,
I never do.
I let my inner voice rumble on until I feel like I have nothing to lose,
When in reality,
I’ve gained so much I won’t dare let it go,
Let it loose…

My faith?
I don’t want to lose it.
My sobriety?
Never do I want to break and deem it useless.
My patience?
I refuse to place it where it shouldn’t be and misuse it…

But,
How do I stop myself from worrying?
How do I stop myself from scurrying away,
Into memories I’ve been refurbishing?
I don’t know…

I,
Don’t know!
Damn it,
I just don’t know.
But,
Silence.
Regardless of what ensues,
Allow it,
I must,
To keep thriving!
It’s a light beam,
In a sky darkening by the day,
Reminding me to pray instead of fighting.
With who I tussle with in a mirror stained by my misguided decisions…

Thank you,
Lord,
For another day.
For allowing me to wake up,
Again,
With another chance to alleviate my pain,
Through your undying love as I’ve found the only answer to it,
Through your heavenly name…