Lost In My Mind

Lost.
Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.
How do I break through?
Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.
Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,
As I inhale another breath and keep calm.
Opening my palm!
To receive blessings I’ve rejected for way too long.
All for a cloud of smoke deterring me from a path I was once on.
A path of righteousness and love I can only find in Christ the older I get,
The more that I’m wrong,
The more I forget who I really am any moment I refuse to be strong…
Lost?
I no longer yearn to be…