All the noise stopped when I chipped a tooth pulling teeth to bring It to an end.This,Vortex of smoke I've spun inside of for too many years of my life,Chipping away at my flesh!Piece by piece.Making sure the torture is painful and slow.But,Not once do I wince as I endure the sting of Hell.As numb... Continue Reading →
Put The Cell Away
Some people have so much money and material.Why?So busy distracting themselves from internal pain torturing them daily.Some are just addicted to drugs,While some are enthralled by a glossy image imprisoning their true character in a cell we,Ourselves,Tightly clutch in the middle of our palms.A cell we pray gives us every answer we seek in a... Continue Reading →
Lost In My Mind
Lost.Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.How do I break through?Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,As I inhale another breath and keep calm.Opening my palm!To receive blessings I've rejected for way too long.All for a... Continue Reading →
You’re Not Alone!
"You're not alone!You're lovedYou're-" Sick of such a cliché thought anytime I reach out for a hand full of love.Love I know I've needed,But,Can't find the more I search for it in some weed and,A thought killing me the more I think about it as I lay down,Speechless… I mean,Why shouldn't I?Why shouldn't I join... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 4 – Love Is Just, Love…
I don't even know why I love you!But,I do.Even after 5 years of us breaking up,As I try my best to live in my truths.How I wasn't perfect as a man drowned by his tears on the surface while surrounded by a noose!Or,What most would call family,Suffocating me when reaching out for a piece of... Continue Reading →
There For The Wrong One
Love.Anytime I think of it,Her puffy cheeks clutter my mind.The only set I would love to punch and kiss just,One more time.But,I ruined my chances by not being patient.By choosing Mary Jane and,Other selfish desires I replaced her with…God gave me what I wanted!Yet,Became blinded by the weed smoke that still haunts me today.If only... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 3 – Before The Flood Gates Open…
The only thing final is the fantasy we live in our minds.Nothing is real in a world made with every lie we've sworn by.So,I keep my head in the clouds fighting for another day before I'm caught in the same vices,Crushing my spirits and waning hopes of living strifeless.No more smoke surrounding a vessel wounded... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 2 – Relapse
Another morning waking up doing what I did yesterday.Taking hits enduring all the pain while I circle around till I find a better way.A renegade since day one while I penetrate a state of mind keeping me in my lesser ways.They say it's impossible!They say for me to change is improbable,By being what you've been!But,All... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 1
Lately, I haven't been able to sit and write exactly how I've wanted to. So, I thought the only to get myself back to where I was once upon a time, I should just express how I'm feeling and what's been happening. I know the next cliché phrase or questions you'd hear is, "But, where... Continue Reading →
Clouded By Choices
I guess I've been so disappointed in myself that,I could barely face my pen and pad,With intent to heal myself from a past I've,Chosen to rewind in my mind,Until I was shown a price I was forced to pay.My voice,Along side a silent mind was the cost,So,I had to pick a different choice.Between destroying every... Continue Reading →