"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Lost.Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.How do I break through?Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,As I inhale another breath and keep calm.Opening my palm!To receive blessings I've rejected for way too long.All for a... Continue Reading →
Another morning waking up doing what I did yesterday.Taking hits enduring all the pain while I circle around till I find a better way.A renegade since day one while I penetrate a state of mind keeping me in my lesser ways.They say it's impossible!They say for me to change is improbable,By being what you've been!But,All... Continue Reading →
I guess I've been so disappointed in myself that,I could barely face my pen and pad,With intent to heal myself from a past I've,Chosen to rewind in my mind,Until I was shown a price I was forced to pay.My voice,Along side a silent mind was the cost,So,I had to pick a different choice.Between destroying every... Continue Reading →
Their mouths were tainted by miasmata I vow to kill,Miasmata with no ability to sicken my vessel protected by God's Will.How?A question I cannot answer until…I rid myself of my own…Because,Weed smoke still subjugates my train of thought even if it is of a different kind,The kind that Mary Jane provides when you're lonely during... Continue Reading →
Enjoying anything in life is harder than it seems when,All you feel is dejection.Dejection others turn a blind eye toward regardless of affection they may have for you.How do I smile when watching a movie?How do I laugh at a joke I find funny without forcing it?How do I even eat food and feel satisfied... Continue Reading →
Imagine being the guy no one reaches out to.The guy everybody ignores anytime there's a holiday,Even if it is his birthday too.How awful it feels to be forgotten.How daunting it is to be wrong in the eyes of every who used to love you… Heartbreaking,Yes!But,That's me.A reality I've had to let sink and fill my... Continue Reading →
Trapped within 4 walls closing in on my sanity.Delusions of grandeur take over my mind the closer they get.Strong enough to push them away!I thought to myself…But,Scrunched I was.By the blindness I force myself to experience when hugging the likes of Mary Jane with my yellowed fingertips.Lonely,As I fall through the middle of a cloud... Continue Reading →
Have you ever stopped reaching out to someone and notice how years go by without both of you speaking?How they define you as lost without any effort to call or text,While you end up feeling wrong about the whole situation?I’m sure it’s more common than we think while we try to find our place in,A... Continue Reading →
Can’t really define what I’m feeling.So many kind of thoughts that I’m dealing with,Instilling my soul with a boat-load of smoke rising out of my ceiling.I’m,Temporarily sealing a void with a cloud preventing me from revealing many truths I’ve needed to face.Forget a blunt to my face as I’m wincing in pain,When I’m flicking my... Continue Reading →
This very moment,I prefer to die. And,I don’t know why. Just,So much Anger overflowing the bottle I’ve kept shut inside I,Can’t seem to notice the brighter side.So,I smoke.Until the smoke becomes a canvas I can paint my dreams on.Even if it all disappears,Eventually.Inevitably… *Side Note* Hopefully everyone reading this right now is feeling good, doing... Continue Reading →
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