Help Me Forget

I see her smile from cheek to cheek and think of how distinct I am from the world around me…
How I’ve always been a geek,
Yet addicted to the street,
Never any time to focus on my own smile to attract my well-deserved queen…

Or,
Do I even deserve one?
With the surplus of rejections I’ve received from a sight for sore eyes,
My,
Lord,
Am I worth some?
All I want to do is coil my palms around her head as her curls rest,
While I caress my mind with the thought of us,
But,
Every,
“Hell Naw!”
I’ve been told would shift my heart away from even wanting one…

I mean,
What can I do?
I just became handsome in the eyes of the masses.
No matter if I still hide inside the frames of my glasses.
Or watch Dragon Ball when I’m down on my luck as the night passes.
A woman looking at me usually meant that she found something to laugh at.
Nowadays,
I’ll get a wink,
A smile and a small window to bag that.
But,
Never do I take the opportunity.
Everyone thinks I’m a catch until I’m caught dreaming through poetry,
Lucidly.
A world full of scars portraying the image that’s been confusing me.
How full of beauty the sunshine is,
Yet,
You’ll only burn If you stand too long,
Under…

It’s like thunder strikes,
Upon your eyes,
When the one you like,
Would rather hide,
From you….

It’s like others cry,
In joy while I’m,
In search for eyes,
That look at me,
Without feeling blue…

Like,
“I accept you for you,
Flaws and all,
Even when you’re bouncing off the walls…”

Why wouldn’t you want someone who understands you?
I mean,
She speaks my language,
All Poetry,
Coercing me to smile often…
A grin I’ve left in a coffin,
While I rest,
Every night,
Hoping God would defrost this…
Ice block he placed exactly where my heart is…

Numb to Emotion,
I’ve been,
As I lie in another’s deceit.
But,
She makes me feel again,
When she recommends,
My hands to wrap around her waist and release,
All the tension that’s been weighing on my shoulders,
In the form of a kiss…

Still,
Do I give this feeling any more attention?
When hers is cluttered by a man no matter the tension?
I don’t know…
But,
Her smile is one my heart doesn’t want to deny.
I want see it go from cheek to cheek,
Nice and wide.
And show the entire world how divine it is when witnessing the shine.
How,
Her skin doesn’t need a single tint of highlight.
A character set with a foundation based on loyal guidelines,
Attracting my eyes,
Rather than make-up making up a woman I don’t want in my life…

Who knows what’s meant to be,
When I just yearn to be free?
While wrapped in the arms of a straight shooter in every degree?
Able to keep on rapping with me,
While attacking this demon infecting our being with habits defeating the purpose we are meant to see,
Manifest before our own eyes…

All I know is,
She entered my life,
And,
Just want to take her out to dine.
Take it slow and ask her what’s her favorite ride?
Her favorite color?
And about anything else she likes.
Lay a kiss on her cheek,
Put her stress to bed,
And indulge on high times…

All I ask from God!
Is.
Please convince her not to leave just when…
Just when I find someone that helps my heart forget…
That helps my heart forget…