Irresponsible beyond belief I have been,
Knowing how others admired my clarity.
I thought I could roll a joint from time to time,
As I unwind with a certified dyme!
But,
I’ve paid the price for many tragedies…
Glass homes shattering as I lay beneath it’s roof collapsing!
From every cry for help I’ve shouted,
For hours,
Each passing night.
Losing hold of a wheel I couldn’t grip tight enough!
While fighting through what feels like an everlasting high.
Having faith in a woman too good at tripping my feet as another dancing lie…
But,
All I can do is move forward,
Towards a closet door I shall open,
Holding hands with skeletons that’ll never leave,
As they’re apart of me regardless of each fleeting moment.
I just feel bad about excluding their presence for so long!
When it was They who kept me company during storms we were soaken in…
How do I honor them?
Skeletons I call memories that made me stronger than,
I ever was before I chose to rely on somber hands,
Letting mine go as I kept slipping,
And slipping during a dance I was hoping she would teach me,
Thoroughly,
Instead of snatching my heart where she burrowed deeply,
Her disdain for my existence…
Maybe,
I honor them by putting out the fire.
The fire burning every picture frame I’ve ever had,
To ash.
Because,
All I desire is to be my old self again,
Prepared to set examples of a good man!
Rather than a pot-head on an infinite boil,
With tears running down my face until I drown within the same soil,
I’ve planted my dreams inside of…
What else is there,
Really,
Besides work you’re passionate about,
Surrounded by others you care for while moving in silence?…
m3l0dicverse 
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