Under Construction – How Hiring!

Don’t quite know what God wants from me.
Everyday I wake up with purpose in mind,
But,
Still puzzled as to why I must go fourth with what my heart aches for.
An escape from thoughts more crippling than a car speeding one-hundred miles per hour,
Zipping right passed your shattered shins flying over to the other side of the street you’re on.
Because,
Involuntary or not,
At least it’s a quick getaway from a reality I’m not so fond of at the present time.
Yet,
Why walk through a path where there is no honor,
Following the road of another trying to demolish every spec of matter in their way?
Nowadays,
I rather take a turn around the next corner with a nimble stride.
Step into the grim grips of chaos and transform it into my own construction site.
Where nobody else is allowed but I!
And,
Those my heart finds qualified enough to hire.
More than a team.
A family I can finally sit at the dinner table with and feel,
Happy…