"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
A heart like mine wouldn't budge for the demons rising in the name of my demise,Pumping out shot after shot from a set of fingers I write with vigilantly.I!Have jumped overboard willingly.Ties cut once choking me to death!Sick of each lie others love to wrap around my head... How they swear they'll never leave your... Continue Reading →
Hits,Diamonds,Home base.Watch your circle change,How it breaks with the way you spin your story.Most gravitate to those who drop jewels,But,Few are brave enough to pick them up from the ground and shine when it’s pouring.I got thrown a curve ball when I decided I would mind mine,While left stranded after basing my peace off the... Continue Reading →
The past me is outdated.Stuck having dinners with Mary Jane and His demons while feeling jaded.Jaded by the race against time and how unworthy he has been to ever be embraced,By anyone as His inner child cries for love He yearns to give away… It’s a shame,Really…Because,He’s beyond amazing!Carries many flaws,But,Believe me,He’s begot a state... Continue Reading →
Rest.It slips away from your mind when you're addicted while lonely and stressed.No longer is it in your grasp until you let go of what burns in your soul to no end.Crisped insidiously by a joint lit by the pain in my chest!But,It's time for a new story to be authored while repenting for each... Continue Reading →
On some days,There are no words.Just,A thought you don’t want to have,Along a ball of angst ballooning inside of your chest,Until it pops!And,Takes you down with it,As hope begins deflating slowly,But surely.The one moment your demons find worthy to dance together,Hold hands and celebrate… Yet,Their celebration ends when you decide to shut off their stereo... Continue Reading →
All I can be is grateful for waking up and being given another chance to find myself and be who I truly am, whoever that is. Because, no matter of what I think and do, whoever I’ve become today is a person no one wants to deal with at any level in their lives… Being... Continue Reading →
Swollen?Or,Is it filled to the very edge,The point of inevitable implosion?My true question is,Above all else,Can it swallow Its own eruption,My voice box?Gulping down that debris and wildfire until it’s put out by the tears still held hostage?Because,A shouting match against the demons in my mind is one I can no longer afford.Because…Only God knows... Continue Reading →
Rivaled only by reflections I’m blessed to see.Disciple of the Word in which we speak to be Truth within realities,Setting most of us apart.A student of life for eternity until Death do us part!Even if Rebirth is what’s next.Aren’t I already dead the moment I lay asleep,Conjuring another world inside of my subconscious?… Yet,I’ve fought... Continue Reading →
Honestly,Writing’s been quite different ever since I began my journey to sobriety.A journey where I don’t half-ass it like I’ve been for the past couple of years.Smoking my troubles away,As soon as I feel any kind of pain,While repeating to myself,“Today will be the day!”Yet,Can’t find the courage to ever let Mary Jane go.Even if... Continue Reading →
Thoughts I write up,Like day jobs and strike one.Batter's up,While I'm boxed in,On a search for diamonds without a need to buy one.I'm shining!Glass cups to my lightbulb while I light blunts.I'm dining alone with many knives,A,Will to survive with demons in mind,Who believe I should die!Regardless of all my beliefs in Christ... But,I let... Continue Reading →
