Riddles, Riddles, Riddles…

Riddle me this,
Riddle me that,
Goes the monster in my mind.
Besetting my soul until I manifest my need for love into a burning blunt,
As I roll down further through the hottest depths of this inferno I’ve created unintentionally.
But,
On some days,
God tames that beast salivating for my flesh,
Like tonight.
A subtle growl here and there,
Yet,
My lips are sealed tight.
My innards feel every swipe from its paw,
Yet,
Doesn’t penetrate through any vein pumping life all throughout a body weary of its survival.
Why?…
A question left unanswered within the darkest corners of my mind…