"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
As an addict, Can't promise you that I won't overdose. Just a thought I felt most won't show others. A thought hidden deep within every mind, Disturbed. Every mind where silence can be heard. A sound so eerie to the Average. Yet, So comforting for the Insanely Addicted... And, What purpose do I have writing... Continue Reading →
Defeated?... Never the case. What reason? To get up and pray? To get on a stage, And leave them in pain? A weekend... Away from the deep end, While staying right on shore, Getting my feet wet... And reject, All the cynical demons, Resting soundly on my shoulders while I try my best to repent...... Continue Reading →
I want to give a hug or two, But, It's hard for me. Sometimes, All I can think about is how to clog my arteries. So much food for thought while I commit Arseny. On different bits of paper away from those I keep far from me! God forbid they get burnt by the lighters... Continue Reading →
Forever my muse, Even on a day where cheers seem to be low. Because, My finger tips can't help but sway in the name of love. And when love comes to mind, I can only think of your eyes, And how much I've hurt them with the sight of my downfall... I just wish the... Continue Reading →
Certain days, I am off it. The faucet I keep running while I'm sauced in, My room, All alone, With prompt and, A pen and a journal where I flaunt this, Talent I've been handed to a pair of palms that, Used to want to die, But, Now wants to live while I floss raps.... Continue Reading →
Love that I denied, Came back to bite. And, I have died, Deep inside. To be reborn and laugh till I'm, Happy like I've never been before... Tears dripping insidiously, Knowing I needed every embrace she offered while drowning away! And, It's killing me... So, I'm reeling each, Demon I'm feeding with drugs for good... Continue Reading →
So dizzy... So nauseous... Feelings I rebuke when I wake from my slumber. A slumber exhaustively difficult for an insomniac mind like mine to be seduced into, By Peace... Still, I strut my wings and fly forward. At least, In my imagination after my third blunt gets fired up. With a 4loco for the craziness... Continue Reading →
Determined for a new beginning, With old habits I had lost long ago. Those things I used to do in place of the clouds of smoke, I've inhaled underneath our clear skies... Like, Waking up and taking that morning walk through Fort Tryon Park, Uptown, Manhattan. Or, Opening my journal first thing, Fighting away my... Continue Reading →
Living for the present, Not a future, Where I don't exist, In the lives of my beloved... Don't want to be anywhere I'm not wanted. Spent too many nights under this roof crying over my faucet. Asking God why he didn't swing by every time I had lost It, As a prophet who was prompted... Continue Reading →
It's hard to stay bullet proof, Mentally, When ailments and bills pile, As you watch your loved ones, Hungry, Right next to you. Thoughts rise, Am I a man? I ask myself... Because, Generally, We're measured by the glow on our wrist watches and the inches on our crotches. Or, All the Jordan's stockpiling in... Continue Reading →
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