Persona Non Grata

Earth is Hell. For a lot of us. I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of waking up, at all. I’m tired of reawakening into a world where I know the kind of help I need will not be given. I’m tired of reawakening to the reality that I’m completely alone in a wasteland barren of all kinds of Love…

Earth is just, Hell. A sphere of dirt trying to strike my hopes and dreams with the biggest piece of debris it can possibly make. At least it feels that way. It’s hard not to feel as if the Universe has a bullet with your name written on it stylized in calligraphy that will forever stay singed inside of your fading memory when, you’re an outcast. When, you’re the person others have no problem walking by regardless if you’re dying right in front of them…

Unfortunately, it’s how I was stigmatized, the persona non grata. One who’s unwelcome everywhere they travel to, no matter how hungry and sleepy…

Nonetheless, I digress as hard as it is to move on. What my focus should be is my escape from a prison depriving me of rest I’ve direly needed for the last several years. An unruly process destroying everything protecting you internally from enemies we can’t see with out naked eye. A war crime we commit on a daily basis as an issue not worthy of any action to be taken into consideration. Because, If no one nor anything I’ve come across cares about allowing me to sleep with both eyes closed rather than just the one, then…

That’s the solution, getting away from the arsons of your life attempting to leave you burned out without an option to fall back on except for the ultimatums they’ll place upon you. Problem is, I’m beyond depleted, in physical pain for two-thirds of my day as the week goes by as a low as it possibly can. And…

All I’m really left with are two questions I’m determined to answer how I desire to:

Will I make it to shore?

How do I know my arms and legs aren’t going to give out seconds before getting my hands on a land of paradise existing in my mind no matter what tragedy occurs?

Guess it is time to keep marching on !…