"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
As a single man without anyone by your side,You're pretty much fucked.No one cares for your pain as you're labeled another bust.When you're laid out on the ground from every hit you've taken,You're just a floor matt others walk over while they hide their faces.Too ashamed to see a soul they've hurt by never giving... Continue Reading →
What is life anymore?Is it a course of torment for the souls who mourn rest for most of their weary days?Or,Is there something at the end of our tunnels,Virtually endless,As we crawl on bleeding knees while laughed at for,Cringing in pain...Too hard to tell nowadays...
"Brush the dirt off of your shoulders! Can't do nothin' else!" Others would tell me as frequently as possible, even if their shoulders are stained worse than mine can ever be. But, as much as I despise the phrase, I do regardless of what I am told. With hands still cut open by the jagged... Continue Reading →
On some days,There are no words.Just,A thought you don’t want to have,Along a ball of angst ballooning inside of your chest,Until it pops!And,Takes you down with it,As hope begins deflating slowly,But surely.The one moment your demons find worthy to dance together,Hold hands and celebrate… Yet,Their celebration ends when you decide to shut off their stereo... Continue Reading →
I've been a bad person for the last several years,But,I'm not ashamed to admit it.Because,I'm committed to becoming a better person before I cease to exist in,This beautiful life I was given… Yet,I always peg myself with the question:Why am I alive when I could die right!Now…And,Nobody would know until my body is found… Still,Never... Continue Reading →
Mistakes were made,But,I have a question.Does it mean I'm barred from repentance,A chance to be accountable and make up for my reckless nature?Or,Do I have an opportunity to escape what is destined to break first!Before it all collapses on me… A Glasshouse was never meant to stay in one piece.Each wall is transparent enough to... Continue Reading →
I want to be better than I’ve ever been.And,Every time I smoke I’m fallen after taking every hit.Boxed in by a sedative alleviating nothing but my readiness,To burn a bridge only leading me into a Hell I’m in.Meant for a soul dead of any light no matter where you look inside of itDespite of its... Continue Reading →
Honestly,Writing’s been quite different ever since I began my journey to sobriety.A journey where I don’t half-ass it like I’ve been for the past couple of years.Smoking my troubles away,As soon as I feel any kind of pain,While repeating to myself,“Today will be the day!”Yet,Can’t find the courage to ever let Mary Jane go.Even if... Continue Reading →
Sober thoughts are so exciting!Like,Being able to smile without feeling like a criminal on the loose.Like,A trip to Coldstone just because I can while having nothing to lose.Often I scream for the freedom my inner child's demanding for good reason!But,Fear of a different life shrouds my mind,Till I'm inclined to buy a dime at the... Continue Reading →
"Numbskull" is the result of a fool way too attentive to those who despise their existence and,I find myself dealing with such circumstance.More often than not,My skull feels numb all throughout its left side and,Makes me wonder why I even hurt myself by chasing those who let me slip from the edge while watching me... Continue Reading →
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