"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Turning up in a hood where everyone is having lows, I fold my hands away from those playing their cards in a certain way. Hanging out with those at the corner will keep you cornered and you won't even know it throughout Night and Day! Yea, Burning through a joint while sipping a cup full... Continue Reading →
*Side Note* - The poem below is a piece I wrote during a recent relapse with alcohol. I wanted to post this in light of my 3 months of sobriety as of now. Life can always change as long as you put your mind to it! Please enjoy 💜 What is this existence all for... Continue Reading →
Better get this money, Some honeys, Guns for you to start bucking, Everybody hating by the hundreds... A motto, Many live by. Won't swallow their pride, Trying to get by. Sly! Packing a hollow, For anyone solid without an eye for a model, Nor a bottle... "I'm high!..." All over their mind, When I wouldn't... Continue Reading →
I am a man of God's word, Not a God of Man's word. Especially, During a time where my demons intend to master! Any control they may have had over me... I've had to break a promise or two while sobering, From past rendezvous I couldn't pass up where I've lowered these, Glittering eyes I... Continue Reading →
Ever wanted to leave a note, Just in case? A simple note just saying, "Hey, I'm sorry for doing what I did. I didn't mean to keep drinking those drinks, Even though I knew I probably wouldn't wake up again..." I know, So grim. But, You never know which bottle that'll put you to sleep... Continue Reading →
Run away, Run away, Run away. Is what I want do the moment that I wake. Not because I feel pain... Not because of any kind of internal hate. But, Because too much of "Them" are seen every. Single. Day... "Can I get a quarter?" Is the phrase, You will hear as soon as you... Continue Reading →
Everyday I was faded by blunt smoke. High in the sky where the clouds cloak, All murderous thoughts from head to toe, While light shined bright in plain sight, But still alone I was, In a spot where light had last shone... Now I'm spotlighted. Spotlighted while my mind's in crisis. Indecisive, About whether I... Continue Reading →
I want to give a hug or two, But, It's hard for me. Sometimes, All I can think about is how to clog my arteries. So much food for thought while I commit Arseny. On different bits of paper away from those I keep far from me! God forbid they get burnt by the lighters... Continue Reading →
So dizzy... So nauseous... Feelings I rebuke when I wake from my slumber. A slumber exhaustively difficult for an insomniac mind like mine to be seduced into, By Peace... Still, I strut my wings and fly forward. At least, In my imagination after my third blunt gets fired up. With a 4loco for the craziness... Continue Reading →
It's hard to stay bullet proof, Mentally, When ailments and bills pile, As you watch your loved ones, Hungry, Right next to you. Thoughts rise, Am I a man? I ask myself... Because, Generally, We're measured by the glow on our wrist watches and the inches on our crotches. Or, All the Jordan's stockpiling in... Continue Reading →
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