"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Clouded.By fear of being myself amongst demons walking in the flesh.Surrounded,By vessels emptied of their heart and soul,As I watch those akin to my blood become just like them… Would call them family,But,That would require loyalty and change at a price only God can set.Being pennywise,I only have enough for myself as man pressured by... Continue Reading →
Happy New Year! Zero calls, Nor a single message seen. Riddled by pain as old as, Me... Yet, Regardless of the same ole' turn out, Another night where I'm reminded of my lack of family and friends in such an absurd house, Full of demons sipping tea with everyone so, So burnt out of love...... Continue Reading →
Free.Free is what I feel when I lay distant from a family devoured by their guilt and sorrow.Free!Is what I feel every moment I recite poems,Hoping they become a good omen for another reading to alleviate their worries over the anticipation of Tomorrow.Free!...Is all I can feel as I isolate from what is toxic to... Continue Reading →
Depression. Real and, For the most part? Unexpected. Never do you take notice until that bottle in your chest explodes, As each piece of glass ricochets off the walls you've built brick by brick. Never do you feel it coursing through your veins, Until you're classified as useless by those you love, Who've grown sick... Continue Reading →
I just want to yell!Get it all out and escape this hell!I have trapped myself in.Harder to admit no matter how easy it may look,As I’m finally climbing out of the hole I fell into… Because,I miss what a hug from a true friend feels like!I,Just don’t know what to do this very moment I... Continue Reading →
How do I break the algorithm? Weed so deep in my mind this instant, Most likely I'll permit it, While these memories convince me to quit it... Memories flashing in front of my eyes, Denying my two cents at the cost of my life! The price... Of sitting and swigging a bottle, Splitting a cigar... Continue Reading →
Depression is,Waking up at 5 in the morning while staring at your cell phone screen just.Confused.Depression is,Having a moment of laughter,Immediately stopping after taking notice because you feel like you,Don't deserve it.Depression is,Feeling like you're drowning above sea level while inhaling your breath deeper than the love you have for your current self.Depression is just,Virtually... Continue Reading →
Lights all around the neighborhood illuminate and flicker, As he feels His presence approaching his fractured soul, Only this moment seems different. As He arrives, No thread & needle to sow back shards of his broken heart, But a lesson learned in the name of love, While blood drips from his finger tips...
Isn’t it scary?How other’s label one’s search for love as,A victim’s mentality?What if,I just needed a hug no matter how glad I am to be,Me?What if,I just needed the company of a friend,Instead of,The company of my demons?... Nonetheless,I move on.With the power of God.Because,Each and every time I cry,God never fails to give me... Continue Reading →
I yelled for help! You noticed, And, Because of you I didn't drown. You pulled me off the ledge, And, Helped me find a simple smile... You may not understand, But, As soon as an outcast like myself leaves his domicile? All you see are demons who believe it's worth while, To poke fun and... Continue Reading →
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