"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
"I love you!" A phrase medicinal in nature.One we all need to hear when our hearts favor pain buried in its own hollowed core.One I've needed to hear while the Devil keeps knocking on my door,Everyday I wake for a chance to even a score with myself.Opening a journal at some point during the day... Continue Reading →
Attention is a hell of a drug!Especially after grabbing a mic around a crowd so desperate to get drunk and high.And I grew tired of it…Watching others surrounding themselves with 1800 bottles while I try to write a hot line?Has me wired in with!Who I really am,Instead of running away from my truths I once... Continue Reading →
"Brush the dirt off of your shoulders! Can't do nothin' else!" Others would tell me as frequently as possible, even if their shoulders are stained worse than mine can ever be. But, as much as I despise the phrase, I do regardless of what I am told. With hands still cut open by the jagged... Continue Reading →
A heart like mine wouldn't budge for the demons rising in the name of my demise,Pumping out shot after shot from a set of fingers I write with vigilantly.I!Have jumped overboard willingly.Ties cut once choking me to death!Sick of each lie others love to wrap around my head... How they swear they'll never leave your... Continue Reading →
Quiet and observant!Is how one must be when you’re anything like me.Because,When you’re a man as lonely as I’ve been,Not only are you silenced,But!Deleted from society and its “toxic” environment,Where most spearhead a protest against those too vibrant!And,Alive in a city dead of hopes and dreams,Replaced by hope in dope and creeds misleading anyone with... Continue Reading →
I want to be better than I’ve ever been.And,Every time I smoke I’m fallen after taking every hit.Boxed in by a sedative alleviating nothing but my readiness,To burn a bridge only leading me into a Hell I’m in.Meant for a soul dead of any light no matter where you look inside of itDespite of its... Continue Reading →
Honestly,Writing’s been quite different ever since I began my journey to sobriety.A journey where I don’t half-ass it like I’ve been for the past couple of years.Smoking my troubles away,As soon as I feel any kind of pain,While repeating to myself,“Today will be the day!”Yet,Can’t find the courage to ever let Mary Jane go.Even if... Continue Reading →
Had to take a minute to sit down and reflect on my state of mind hoping I can get to know myself a little bit more. Because, as much as I love to write my heart away, my palms itch for some difference. Something to take my eyes away from memories I'm sick of replaying... Continue Reading →
Thoughts I write up,Like day jobs and strike one.Batter's up,While I'm boxed in,On a search for diamonds without a need to buy one.I'm shining!Glass cups to my lightbulb while I light blunts.I'm dining alone with many knives,A,Will to survive with demons in mind,Who believe I should die!Regardless of all my beliefs in Christ... But,I let... Continue Reading →
What's it mean when you sit down and,Can't utter a single word out nor,Express how you feel any moment you try to let go?Of everything.Everything weighing your mind down into a darkness you've promised you'd never fall back into… Tell me,What does it?Because,A heart can't keep beating to the echoes of silence while isolated from... Continue Reading →
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