All I can be is grateful for waking up and being given another chance to find myself and be who I truly am, whoever that is. Because, no matter of what I think and do, whoever I’ve become today is a person no one wants to deal with at any level in their lives… Being... Continue Reading →
Just, A Feeling…
I've been a bad person for the last several years,But,I'm not ashamed to admit it.Because,I'm committed to becoming a better person before I cease to exist in,This beautiful life I was given… Yet,I always peg myself with the question:Why am I alive when I could die right!Now…And,Nobody would know until my body is found… Still,Never... Continue Reading →
Is Silence The Answer?
Swollen?Or,Is it filled to the very edge,The point of inevitable implosion?My true question is,Above all else,Can it swallow Its own eruption,My voice box?Gulping down that debris and wildfire until it’s put out by the tears still held hostage?Because,A shouting match against the demons in my mind is one I can no longer afford.Because…Only God knows... Continue Reading →
Better Dayz (Repost)
Rivaled only by reflections I’m blessed to see.Disciple of the Word in which we speak to be Truth within realities,Setting most of us apart.A student of life for eternity until Death do us part!Even if Rebirth is what’s next.Aren’t I already dead the moment I lay asleep,Conjuring another world inside of my subconscious?… Yet,I’ve fought... Continue Reading →
Will He Ever Learn?
Journaling my heart away becomes much more difficult as I keep struggling to stay silent.Sure,My soul loves to sit down and philosophize until sunrise,But,With all due respect to myself,What am I really doing?What can possibly be accomplished while I take another drag from a Joint full of lies and,Buds sparking memories exhausting a vessel asking... Continue Reading →
Mistakes Were Made, But…
Mistakes were made,But,I have a question.Does it mean I'm barred from repentance,A chance to be accountable and make up for my reckless nature?Or,Do I have an opportunity to escape what is destined to break first!Before it all collapses on me… A Glasshouse was never meant to stay in one piece.Each wall is transparent enough to... Continue Reading →
Banana Peelz
I want to be better than I’ve ever been.And,Every time I smoke I’m fallen after taking every hit.Boxed in by a sedative alleviating nothing but my readiness,To burn a bridge only leading me into a Hell I’m in.Meant for a soul dead of any light no matter where you look inside of itDespite of its... Continue Reading →
At Least…
At least,I didn't lose my hands,My feet,Nor any other part of my body. At least,I didn't lose my pen,My journal,Nor my mind. Thank God!That,All I lost were ten dollars and not,My precious life… A life I care more for,Now,As I pay for the mistake I've wrought with endless tears falling from my,Eyes…
No, I Am Not. – Freewrite #39
"Oh, he has to be gay!" At least, that's what I was told by a woman I refused to give attention to while walking with her child laying innocently inside of his or her stroller. Why was my lack of attention toward her looks important enough to insult me while walking by, though? Who knows!... Continue Reading →
Press Decline, It’ll Change Your Life…
Honestly,Writing’s been quite different ever since I began my journey to sobriety.A journey where I don’t half-ass it like I’ve been for the past couple of years.Smoking my troubles away,As soon as I feel any kind of pain,While repeating to myself,“Today will be the day!”Yet,Can’t find the courage to ever let Mary Jane go.Even if... Continue Reading →