Dark Knight Coaster

Rollercoaster rides are exhilarating for the first few laps.
Flowing through a wind tunnel drying every tear dropping over memories from your recent past.
But,
Every ride is different,
As I’m strapped to a rollercoaster seemingly infinite.
With so many loops I have to wrap around,
I’ve gotten sick of making laps allowing for another trip into a damnation I refuse to experience any further…

Question is,
How do I stop this rollercoaster in its tracks?
Better yet,
If it doesn’t come to a halt,
I’ll remove every strap,
Jump off and parachute my way onto land.
With a soldier’s state of mind,
Knife in hand,
Along a hunger for a plate of fruit for thought only a survivor can withstand…

I just,
Don’t want to intervene with God’s plan,
Whatever that may be.
I think I have an idea as to what He wants,
But,
How can I ever know since I haven’t tried my hardest to keep on praying?
Every night,
The same decisions I let every demon in my mind keep making.
Like,
Videos full of spice and an aimless vision of my life full of dimes clouded by the shine,
Of Mary Jane’s teeth!
Possessing a voice vastly angelic,
When She speaks my heart keeps racing until I’m waist-deep!
In emotions coming from down under…

And,
What’s next?
Nothing but another date with death until I’m six feet deep inside!
But,
I have another chance before the ground beneath claps with loud thunder…
Of course!
I’ll Jump and let it all crash,
Because,
With God by my side?
I just know I will recover…

It’s like im on a roller coaster, like the nitro looping all crazy, all over the place, and then when the ride stops, you just stay strapped to the roller coaster until it moves again for another ride.

That’s how I feel.