"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Expressing my feelings is something I forgot how to do throughout these past several lonely years of my life. How can you not when all you've known is anger for longer than you can remember? And it hardly ever gets better as I wrestle with one question. Is it even worth expressing what makes my... Continue Reading →
A troubled mind travels through wind tunnels of angst and despair,Colder than a night below 30° without a blanket in sight.Forever cursed by idle hands refusing to write their own life story… Yet,On a search it goes!A search that won't conclude unless you face yourself along every waning goal,It promised it'd never let go of…... Continue Reading →
Eyes glare at me as if I'm a museum exhibit.Stuck behind walls made of glass,But,The art I display is not for show while I fix my act and revitalize my waning spirit.Yet,Others stare,And stare,With a chuckle here and there,After witnessing what most in New York city call a tragedy.A pair of hole-ridden shoes with the... Continue Reading →
Nights like these, There aren't many things to think about. Sitting down, Taking deep breaths is enough for a man just, Trying to change his whereabouts. Address the plethora of skeletons within a closet locked by many doubts, Of a life full of smiles pending on resilience within a discipline I now replenish with a... Continue Reading →
Clouded.By fear of being myself amongst demons walking in the flesh.Surrounded,By vessels emptied of their heart and soul,As I watch those akin to my blood become just like them… Would call them family,But,That would require loyalty and change at a price only God can set.Being pennywise,I only have enough for myself as man pressured by... Continue Reading →
Happy New Year! Zero calls, Nor a single message seen. Riddled by pain as old as, Me... Yet, Regardless of the same ole' turn out, Another night where I'm reminded of my lack of family and friends in such an absurd house, Full of demons sipping tea with everyone so, So burnt out of love...... Continue Reading →
Free.Free is what I feel when I lay distant from a family devoured by their guilt and sorrow.Free!Is what I feel every moment I recite poems,Hoping they become a good omen for another reading to alleviate their worries over the anticipation of Tomorrow.Free!...Is all I can feel as I isolate from what is toxic to... Continue Reading →
Sorry, Not sorry, Mom. For my depression. Half of the time, I could barely feel the left side of my face whenever I think of how I was left neglected. Those moments as an adolescent, Where you could've taught me how to stick out my and chest and stand up for myself instead of, Reminding... Continue Reading →
Depression. Real and, For the most part? Unexpected. Never do you take notice until that bottle in your chest explodes, As each piece of glass ricochets off the walls you've built brick by brick. Never do you feel it coursing through your veins, Until you're classified as useless by those you love, Who've grown sick... Continue Reading →
I just want to yell!Get it all out and escape this hell!I have trapped myself in.Harder to admit no matter how easy it may look,As I’m finally climbing out of the hole I fell into… Because,I miss what a hug from a true friend feels like!I,Just don’t know what to do this very moment I... Continue Reading →
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