Gates Of Valor

Meticulous in thought during moments my mind should be blank.
Moments where my hands should be moving faster than a heart beat speeding up from a lack of funds,
Gone away in smoke burning blunt after blunt.
But,
There’s just so much pressure on my shoulders.
Feels like the weight of everything I must do is crushing me as I try my best to move this boulder forward.
And that’s,
Simply letting go and weathering a storm every time I feel I need another hit.
Jab after jab across my chin,
For a high I can’t achieve with how tolerant I’ve been.
Got to love chain smoking!
As you hang from a ceiling deterring you from breaking through your limits,
Praying for an entry through Pearly Gates glittering upon your visit…
Knowing it’ll never come,
Unless,
You brace yourself with bravery you’ve never know and prepare for an exit,
Out of hellish realities you recoat with a soothing vision,
Painted after addressing your demons with valor while swinging a sword of repentance!
The masses are too petrified to deal with,
As it is a battle from,
Within…