"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
“Old dogs can’t learn new tricks!” Is how the saying goes. But, problem with applying this to another Human is just that. They’re Human, not a canine probably dreaming about sniffing another dog’s butt while chasing a ball thrown into their favorite puddles of mud. Let’s say if it were true, though. Would you, the... Continue Reading →
I don't know where to start,So,I'll just be honest.A part of me wants to die!But,God won't let me go through the process.And,I'm not speaking of rebirth,Any kind of change of that sort.I'm talking about a grave,Grim reapers,And,Thy lord... Why?I'm exhausted.Feels like I am too tired to recap my losses.An offset of colors drown me while... Continue Reading →
Lost in the confines of confusion.Only question I can think of,Am I human?Remote,Yet,Internally out of control for as long as I can remember.Emotions flickering sporadically above an ember lit by the flames of my temper.And,All it did was grow.Grow until my flesh felt its burning touch,Enough for me to pop and set free an influx... Continue Reading →
"You are not a man..." The response my dad gave my Mother when told of my future plans.Never really there,Just,Plotting on making his next buck inside his trusty ole' cab.Driving throughout New York City,Stressed from all his bidding,For a woman who would rather see me dead than existing,He made sure to take a look at... Continue Reading →
Deceivers. Bullies. How to deal with them? Well, there simply is no such thing as "dealing" with anything that doesn't exist... I mean, are you going to willingly waste each precious second ticking faster by the sound of your complaints about a circumstance you wish to escape? Yea, so frustrating it is to sit and... Continue Reading →
*Disclaimer* (Poem below disclaimer!) I wanted to share this piece written during one of the worst moments in my life, my break up from the only relationship I've had. Please note that change is possible the second you choose to. I love you world, stay safe ❤ _________________________="" there="" are="" mornings="" where="" wake="" up="" and=""... Continue Reading →
Cocaine dreams.138th and cypress Ave.Where I learned my numbers,Colors and alphabets.MS-13s,BloodsCrips,Blues,Red… A bull,I was turned into.By minority tendencies.It's all I saw growing up,Only had I to fend for me…In the streets…Of NYC… Can't be taken out,Deceased,Ceased by the gun,Played by the one,Hollow tip out to pierce an empty soul.How ironic would that be? But,I just... Continue Reading →
Thoughts I write up,Like day jobs and strike one.Batter's up,While I'm boxed in,On a search for diamonds without a need to buy one.I'm shining,Glass cups to my lightbulb while I light one.I'm dining alone with many knives,A,Will to surviveWith demons in mind,Who believe I should die!Regardless of all my beliefs in Christ… But,I let bygones... Continue Reading →
"You are my muse, Yet, Because of you? I have everything to lose, And I feel like I lost it all... Slip, Trip and fall was sequential, As I thought I was sanctified, In your arms forever. Yet, Every hug felt clandestine and tethered to an escape planned underneath my nose... My heroin. Can I... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I look inside of my bathroom mirror,And wonder if I do look like them,The scorn and tyrant,Culprits of my inception… When I gaze upon their actions inside of my mind,I run away and immediately open my eyes… After watching belts and wires being cauterized into my skin continuously,Deprived of a much needed hug and... Continue Reading →
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