"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
God's embrace comes when you least expect it.Today,It came through a Trinidadian woman while I sat inside of a Citibank,Pensive.About how lonely my life's been as I live it through a pad,A pen,And,A message God's been nudging me to spread with,Love.Not knowing how to move forward,She urged me to keep going strong without a doubt... Continue Reading →
Spiritual warfare…What grandeur lies ahead as blood splatters on a battlefield where souls die,Knowing rest is not eternal?As we slip into a dream state,We wake,Whether or not our mind takes notice of the netherworld where soil is fertile,For human hearts rotting away!In its core.Or,Paradise we're bound for when following the word of the only King... Continue Reading →
Enjoying life without an audience has been tumultuous lately.Why?Knowing how lonely I like to be,I find myself around more people while having a harder time to breathe.Sort of like,Demons closing in on me,Without a weapon to push back an attack only I can see,Inside of my head.How exhausting...How exhausted I am,To even wake and pick... Continue Reading →
Everything else is better than sex,Drugs,Alcohol,Whatever gets you high for that matter.Back when they were all I thought about,My reality had shattered.Anytime I looked into a mirror,I was cracked further away from repair,Every second I stared into a man I believed wasn't there,Any longer...Anytime I hear glasses cling,As a sober man nowadays,It's music to my... Continue Reading →
Multilingual,Yet there's something about American soil that strips you of everything that makes you colorful.What started out as spanish became spanglish,Then english I was verbally trained to use as a weapon towards freedom I've never had before."Callate la boca!"Mom would yell at me for having any thought of my own.It wasn't until I understood what... Continue Reading →
She wants me,She wants me not.Question is,Do I even want her as I break free from the lock,She's had on my mind?...
Memorial Day's upon us,And,All I can think about is the last time I received 'time and a half'.Nothing else to expect,Besides a job where my heart's split right down its middle.One side in front of a microphone at an open mic,The other in back of a desk where I sit back,And,Force myself to write.But,Regardless of... Continue Reading →
Several days,No response.Yet,They still post,Anyway.No body language indicating whether or not you scared them away.God-forbid you write back,"Hey,Is everything okay?"Or else,You'll be labeled 'too cingy',Too convincingly,After being hooked into a lie too exhausting to face,Over,And,Over again.Connections being possible for a man others write off as a reason to laugh at His expense...Nonerheless,God gave me enough... Continue Reading →
I don't believe I'll ever experience true love,Again.Maybe,I'm bound to die alone,Withering away inside of a casket pigeons try their best to pick at.But,I can't help it.Lost,Is the art of catching a woman's attention.Still the same man as I used to be,Yet,Not as handsome as others found me years ago.What happened?...Why am I no good?...Earlier... Continue Reading →
Thunderstorms are relaxing for a heart hardened by an infinite amount of rocks thrown.Being pelted by unwarranted barbs on a daily basis,Was enough to numb my soul to the pain.Barbs thrown by those who loved me for every show I put on until the curtains closed.Those comments I over-heard when standing on the other side,Whether... Continue Reading →
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