"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
"You are not a man..." The response my dad gave my Mother when told of my future plans.Never really there,Just,Plotting on making his next buck inside his trusty ole' cab.Driving throughout New York City,Stressed from all his bidding,For a woman who would rather see me dead than existing,He made sure to take a look at... Continue Reading →
If you're reading this, for real, thank you. I apologize for not posting more frequently, as I've been going through the hardest transition in my life including illnesses I don't speak of. As a loner with no family nor friends, it gets difficult just to wake up and want to be active. Find meaning in... Continue Reading →
Deceivers. Bullies. How to deal with them? Well, there simply is no such thing as "dealing" with anything that doesn't exist... I mean, are you going to willingly waste each precious second ticking faster by the sound of your complaints about a circumstance you wish to escape? Yea, so frustrating it is to sit and... Continue Reading →
*Disclaimer* (Poem below disclaimer!) I wanted to share this piece written during one of the worst moments in my life, my break up from the only relationship I've had. Please note that change is possible the second you choose to. I love you world, stay safe ❤ _________________________="" there="" are="" mornings="" where="" wake="" up="" and=""... Continue Reading →
Cocaine dreams.138th and cypress Ave.Where I learned my numbers,Colors and alphabets.MS-13s,BloodsCrips,Blues,Red… A bull,I was turned into.By minority tendencies.It's all I saw growing up,Only had I to fend for me…In the streets…Of NYC… Can't be taken out,Deceased,Ceased by the gun,Played by the one,Hollow tip out to pierce an empty soul.How ironic would that be? But,I just... Continue Reading →
Thoughts I write up,Like day jobs and strike one.Batter's up,While I'm boxed in,On a search for diamonds without a need to buy one.I'm shining,Glass cups to my lightbulb while I light one.I'm dining alone with many knives,A,Will to surviveWith demons in mind,Who believe I should die!Regardless of all my beliefs in Christ… But,I let bygones... Continue Reading →
"You are my muse, Yet, Because of you? I have everything to lose, And I feel like I lost it all... Slip, Trip and fall was sequential, As I thought I was sanctified, In your arms forever. Yet, Every hug felt clandestine and tethered to an escape planned underneath my nose... My heroin. Can I... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I look inside of my bathroom mirror,And wonder if I do look like them,The scorn and tyrant,Culprits of my inception… When I gaze upon their actions inside of my mind,I run away and immediately open my eyes… After watching belts and wires being cauterized into my skin continuously,Deprived of a much needed hug and... Continue Reading →
A new chapter begins when the page is turned.What was read before?No longer in view,Just,A new memory to burn... And yes!You can turn back if you choose to,Reflect on every single detail commencing the "Boo Hoo's!"Or,Shovel your way through to the next plot.Dig through it until you strike gold,And,Continue on to the next stop while... Continue Reading →
Plastic to an authentic man is,Tragic.Bodacious you may be,So curvaceous in your lace jeans,You lace me!With many carnal desires.But,Even with a drive,Such as mine,I tire!Like any other when It feels each wheel is falling off,On a road that once inspired me to fire,Shots,On shots,Of scotch until I rotted on a pile of rocks I rose... Continue Reading →
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