"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Honestly, it’s so hard for me to pinpoint my preferences regarding any kind of material. Because, whether or not I pick up a book to read or a journal to write in, all I really want is to be heard… And, anytime I conjure my happy place when closing my eyes, I immediately... Continue Reading →
Shame,How faith isn’t talked about enough,Within a space meant to grow the mind of a child.Are they in a classroom,Or,A limbo with statistics painted on the walls about,How likely their failures are?Scarred,Is the heart of a young soul,More often than it is swayed to follow dreams foretold,By the Universe everywhere they go,Whether it’s a favorite... Continue Reading →
Gratitude,For this second chance in life God allowed me to receive,Even if my wounds are still bleeding,Profusely.Why?Because,It is all in our minds,The Pain we cry!Over…I just couldn’t see that truth till I began to move forward,And,Love myself enough to,Get sober… Thank you,God!
My sensors tripped,As I let her dip,Into thoughts I was too scared to think while I made sure to censor certain bits,But… Truthfully?I was kind of feeling the exact same way.Never really had it easy letting go of anyone who once caused me a lot of pain… Why?Who knows.I would be the wrong to ask!Since... Continue Reading →
Being distant was already a quality in some of us way before any pandemic.Being home every day,From day to night,Whether dark or light,Is what broken hearts already do!And,They’re as common as,The next lie America knows!You will believe,While you label it “true”… With so many realities unable to be faced,I see why so many wear a... Continue Reading →
Talking to other people is harder than it looks.Especially,When you’re devoured by a need to change whether it be,Your current scenery,That same t-shirt you’ve worn for the past 4,5 days,Or,Buying Sensodyne instead of Colgate after running out of toothpaste… “Hi!How are you?” “I’m doing good/great,I woke up today!” Really?Are you really doing good,Or,Just ignoring all... Continue Reading →
Sounds of heart monitors consume my ear canals as much as God,Whenever It holds me in contempt.You would think God Itself would be more accepting,Rather than taking the role of your deathly Rosarian,Laying it to rest how it really is.But,I guess even "It" has its moments of hopelessness when you decide to leave God's side.Because,Aren't... Continue Reading →
Trapped,Trapped,And,Trapped.Within a bubble of loneliness only forgetfulness can pop.I just want to be grandfathered in a state of bliss from Day to Night,Without thinking of drinking a shot.Even if I still stay sober,I’m over the Drama.I’m,Still soaking in blood from the Karma I suffered!I,Just want a break from it all and be smothered in,Someone’s arms…... Continue Reading →
Sometimes,You just can’t write a poem.All I can do is sit down,Sway a pen around,And just,Think about how I want to disappear…
Ain't it sad,When you can't remember the last hug you've had?I mean,Not really.I can sit here,Be mad,And keep reeling wretched memories over and over again.Or,Come up with another bar,Further entrapping emotions trying to keep me from being sober in this,Labyrinth with walls made of glass.See-through walls in the mind of my inner child,While I search... Continue Reading →
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