"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Tough pill to swallow when realizing she was never The One. But, how do you ever know? How can you ever tell when The One who occupies your heart and mind most is whom God wants you to run away from with your shoes tied as tightly as possible? Belief. Does she believe in you?... Continue Reading →
Hard to think about what’s pure,Because,I will never be.Although I plan to reach for the skies,My lord,I don’t know if I’ll ever pass that brink,Even if God shows me that I will… Will I ever think of a better way?Yes!But,I do wonder if I’ll make it through a night without feeling any pain.So grueling it... Continue Reading →
Isn’t it scary?How other’s label one’s search for love as,A victim’s mentality?What if,I just needed a hug no matter how glad I am to be,Me?What if,I just needed the company of a friend,Instead of,The company of my demons?... Nonetheless,I move on.With the power of God.Because,Each and every time I cry,God never fails to give me... Continue Reading →
Hard to be impressed when you're elevated past the present plane.I'm more so pressed by the nerve of anyone trying to stunt my future growth for their own hit of fame.See,I don't care about anything,Nor,Anybody politicking over politicians when it's our heart that's missing.I only care about the rhythm I am instilling while ascending past... Continue Reading →
I became an Ex when she put us to a close,After being cornered by the wrongs I would right,Eventually…But,I see that I was meant to be alone,I was born without holding on to anybody's hand accordingly,So,What do I care?All the pain I had to bear as a naked soul revealed to me the closed-minded folk,Luring... Continue Reading →
Gratitude,For this second chance in life God allowed me to receive,Even if my wounds are still bleeding,Profusely.Why?Because,It is all in our minds,The Pain we cry!Over…I just couldn’t see that truth till I began to move forward,And,Love myself enough to,Get sober… Thank you,God!
Talking to other people is harder than it looks.Especially,When you’re devoured by a need to change whether it be,Your current scenery,That same t-shirt you’ve worn for the past 4,5 days,Or,Buying Sensodyne instead of Colgate after running out of toothpaste… “Hi!How are you?” “I’m doing good/great,I woke up today!” Really?Are you really doing good,Or,Just ignoring all... Continue Reading →
Sounds of heart monitors consume my ear canals as much as God,Whenever It holds me in contempt.You would think God Itself would be more accepting,Rather than taking the role of your deathly Rosarian,Laying it to rest how it really is.But,I guess even "It" has its moments of hopelessness when you decide to leave God's side.Because,Aren't... Continue Reading →
Ain't it sad,When you can't remember the last hug you've had?I mean,Not really.I can sit here,Be mad,And keep reeling wretched memories over and over again.Or,Come up with another bar,Further entrapping emotions trying to keep me from being sober in this,Labyrinth with walls made of glass.See-through walls in the mind of my inner child,While I search... Continue Reading →
I yelled for help! You noticed, And, Because of you I didn't drown. You pulled me off the ledge, And, Helped me find a simple smile... You may not understand, But, As soon as an outcast like myself leaves his domicile? All you see are demons who believe it's worth while, To poke fun and... Continue Reading →
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