I must accept it because it's what God wants.I want to be a baller,A player,But,That wasn't God's call.I tried to hang it up!But,God looked at me and said,"You will not fall!"Any longer…
Bittersweet Candy – Freewrite #42
Waking up everyday knowing that no one will ever just, say Hi, is probably the toughest reality to wake up to. From what I've seen, rich or poor, Loneliness is powerful enough to devour your entire soul, spitting it back out onto concrete where the sun shines the brightest. A beast I've known too well,... Continue Reading →
Mary Jane Who? (Repost)
Smoking weed isn’t as special as others make it seem like. After a while you’ll find yourself asking, “Can’t I be doing something better for myself right now?” Usually where I end up at the end up like this moment finishing my first blunt of the day. Feels like my personal demons manifested in the... Continue Reading →
A Look Back At The Boogie Down
Jobs are hard to stay consistent with, at least for me. If there is no purpose my soul can find within any kind of structure of work, then by God will I rebuke it to the hottest flame Hell has to offer. But, as a top flight security guard in the boogie down, South Bronx,... Continue Reading →
Which One Will I Wear Today? (Repost)
Lately, It's been hard to write anything. Overthinking till my mind overflows with a sea of memories I drown into, Fatally. Because, A piece of me dies each time I dip my feet inside of it. A sea colder than the heart of a mother who gave up on her son too early despite of... Continue Reading →
Burnout!
Burnout is definitely real,According to my heart and mind so exhausted from uttering a single sentence,Alongside a voice hurting for some silence.A voice urging me to keep quiet before it blows!And,Leaves my life scattered on the ground in more pieces than I can ever count.It just,Took longer than it should’ve,My escape from my own mental... Continue Reading →
Blind Rage
Episodes of rage take over when sober from love.Drunk by the thought of her for so long,But,It's time to show a different me.A different flow of rhythm where I only act up on a stage for the world to see.No fear while I drop bombs from a palm deterring naysayers from my life,Praying everyone survives... Continue Reading →
Hot Headz
Living inside of your own head is like,Dipping your feet in a lake of fire while you watch them violently dissolve.An inevitable implosion a Hot-Head cannot prevent,Without a will to move forward instead of dwelling on a past already behind them…But,What is home if I'm not welcomed anywhere I go?The only way is up after... Continue Reading →
Why Me?
"Why does it have to be me?" The question I ask when I walk down a street,Where my feet never feel welcomed.A beast in the eyes of each person I pass while I smile with a piece of me broken.And,Only I know what rattles inside of a mind I pray for,For the moment… No one... Continue Reading →
Ain’t Mad Anymore!
All the noise stopped when I chipped a tooth pulling teeth to bring It to an end.This,Vortex of smoke I've spun inside of for too many years of my life,Chipping away at my flesh!Piece by piece.Making sure the torture is painful and slow.But,Not once do I wince as I endure the sting of Hell.As numb... Continue Reading →