"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Is it a date?Is it a meeting between two artists trying to paint a new picture around lives in need of more color?Are we just,Using this as a way to kill time,Imagining how it'd be like if we had the company we wish we had in front of us,Over some food while we both feel,Blue?Or,Am... Continue Reading →
Alarms sound off from the top of the morning,But,I never hear them.Hours go by while I wrestle with my thoughts,And,Emotions."When is this all going to end?"Why am I still here?"Not a single message to look forward to.Zero voicemails wondering where I've been.Just,A screen as black as the empty,Spacious void in my chest devouring any hint... Continue Reading →
There goes one response,Then,Two.A possible third that never comes through.Silence…A message as direct as it gets as I end up conversing with the journal I write in.Friendship?Is an old idea I try not to buy into,Anymore,Now that I've had all I can take.The pain of being ignored is an ache I feel in every bone... Continue Reading →
Her beauty…So,Unreal,Surreal.Whenever she bats her eyes,It's as if,Joy glimmers into mine,While my mind reels.Going through painted memories,Highlight reels I create picturing how it would be like,If,Our fingers intertwined,And,Peeled away each wall where our mysteries lie… Such beauty I wouldn't dare to undress.Because,Seductive she is not.She's more like,The stars glittering throughout A night sky infusing my... Continue Reading →
I pray everything has been well with everyone out there. Had to take a second out of my day and pour my thoughts onto a waterproof page. Finally, over three months off of weed smoke and it feels so good! But, lately, I've been having consecutive dreams where I would come across a pack or... Continue Reading →
Have you ever stopped reaching out to someone and notice how years go by without both of you speaking?How they define you as lost without any effort to call or text,While you end up feeling wrong about the whole situation?I’m sure it’s more common than we think while we try to find our place in,A... Continue Reading →
How's it like to be normal?Don't really know what that's like.Others smile,Others hug,Others wave and say "Hi!"I,Pat myself in the back and move forward.I,Thank God anytime I see humans love one another,I...Just don't really know what a hug even feels like,Anymore...
Isn’t it scary?How other’s label one’s search for love as,A victim’s mentality?What if,I just needed a hug no matter how glad I am to be,Me?What if,I just needed the company of a friend,Instead of,The company of my demons?... Nonetheless,I move on.With the power of God.Because,Each and every time I cry,God never fails to give me... Continue Reading →
Talking to other people is harder than it looks.Especially,When you’re devoured by a need to change whether it be,Your current scenery,That same t-shirt you’ve worn for the past 4,5 days,Or,Buying Sensodyne instead of Colgate after running out of toothpaste… “Hi!How are you?” “I’m doing good/great,I woke up today!” Really?Are you really doing good,Or,Just ignoring all... Continue Reading →
So many symptoms of Loneliness to count.But,None rattles you more than the symptom I call,Forgetfulness.That state of mind where you forget how and what it's like to bond with another. That state of mind where you forget what it's like to smile and feel happy as you were years ago.That state of mind where,You forget... Continue Reading →
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