"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Biggest mistake you can ever make is keeping yourself shrouded by others who mar your existence with stigmas they internally placed on themselves.And,I’ve kept myself within that circle of misery for too long as a Bronx boy so used to poverty of all kinds.Whether it’s bucket-loads of mental trauma or an stomach empty of golden... Continue Reading →
I don't know where to start,So,I'll just be honest.A part of me wants to die!But,God won't let me go through the process.And,I'm not speaking of rebirth,Any kind of change of that sort.I'm talking about a grave,Grim reapers,And,Thy lord... Why?I'm exhausted.Feels like I am too tired to recap my losses.An offset of colors drown me while... Continue Reading →
Lost in the confines of confusion.Only question I can think of,Am I human?Remote,Yet,Internally out of control for as long as I can remember.Emotions flickering sporadically above an ember lit by the flames of my temper.And,All it did was grow.Grow until my flesh felt its burning touch,Enough for me to pop and set free an influx... Continue Reading →
Cocaine dreams.138th and cypress Ave.Where I learned my numbers,Colors and alphabets.MS-13s,BloodsCrips,Blues,Red… A bull,I was turned into.By minority tendencies.It's all I saw growing up,Only had I to fend for me…In the streets…Of NYC… Can't be taken out,Deceased,Ceased by the gun,Played by the one,Hollow tip out to pierce an empty soul.How ironic would that be? But,I just... Continue Reading →
Can't stop thinking about what it's like to be the guy every woman throw themselves at with full force. A lonely, nerdy dude like me, formerly 300 pounds up until my junior year of college at Queens, isn't so fun to be when you yearn for someone's embrace. Sure, all the weight is gone, have... Continue Reading →
With so many tears running down your cheeks first thing in the morning,Maybe,That's God's way of letting you know you are now healing,Even if you have no clue how.Because,For some reason,I still find a way to smile...
Ever been so depressed where you couldn't even squeeze tooth paste out of its tube,Just because it took time away from doing absolutely nothing at all?Or,Having difficulty eating without smoking a plethora of enormous joints as big as each open wound on your ailing body?An accolade you'd hate to give those demons waltzing all across... Continue Reading →
Bless World! I'm hoping everyone is smiling up at the sky even when it's not shining. I wanted to let everyone who reads my blog know that I had to take a few days off due to some tough mental battles I've been dealing with. As a loner myself, It becomes difficult to handle, so... Continue Reading →
Embracing change is much more difficult than it seems. The second you'd lace your boots, Stepping out into a world where you are the recluse, You're seen as a target for being farfetched in the eyes of someone living a farce in a city all about illusions... Broadway. Skyscrapers, Lights and an avenue full of... Continue Reading →
I now see what He saw back then. The seesaws that tip side to side for the right balance. Swings of Life changing every way we thought, From the last moment to the next, Only rehashing, A past most of us seek to fix. I'd know coming from a glass house cracked by drinks and... Continue Reading →
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