"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Depression is,Waking up at 5 in the morning while staring at your cell phone screen just.Confused.Depression is,Having a moment of laughter,Immediately stopping after taking notice because you feel like you,Don't deserve it.Depression is,Feeling like you're drowning above sea level while inhaling your breath deeper than the love you have for your current self.Depression is just,Virtually... Continue Reading →
Jane often disappears after our brief interactions.And,Anytime we do,It always hits the fan while,Blowing up in smoke… What seems like a break from absorbing her hits,Is more like an instance of burning a bridge.The more that I’m given what numbs my soul,The more I’m distant from flames that wither when you,Let go… I see poison... Continue Reading →
Being peaceful is something I’m not used to.After a few days of silence,That bottle in my chest becomes vibrant,With all I’ve been pouring into it,Glowing as it pops into pieces without a choice to fight it…Because,I ask myself.Why not let it explode?And,Bask in gleaming light coming from the hot embers of a burning soul,Forming into... Continue Reading →
I feel it in my bones.Tirelessness,Wired in with,An ache pulsating all across a body desiring bliss.My version of it?A moment to write verses and shit.Holding a mic,Serving a bitch,Many rhymes I’ve worded to fit,Inside of a mind I’ve noticed has flipped,Upside down… Hollowed out from each pump held by those akin,For weening off of every... Continue Reading →
I always wondered what it was about her,You know?How,You want up to her so easily while she was crying.Wiping off her tears while asking,“What’s wrong?”Without shaming her for it… Kind of made me cry much more than usual.Those nights where you ignored the tears falling from my cheeks while watching others dance together as if... Continue Reading →
Hard to be impressed when you're elevated past the present plane.I'm more so pressed by the nerve of anyone trying to stunt my future growth for their own hit of fame.See,I don't care about anything,Nor,Anybody politicking over politicians when it's our heart that's missing.I only care about the rhythm I am instilling while ascending past... Continue Reading →
Sounds of heart monitors consume my ear canals as much as God,Whenever It holds me in contempt.You would think God Itself would be more accepting,Rather than taking the role of your deathly Rosarian,Laying it to rest how it really is.But,I guess even "It" has its moments of hopelessness when you decide to leave God's side.Because,Aren't... Continue Reading →
Ain't it sad,When you can't remember the last hug you've had?I mean,Not really.I can sit here,Be mad,And keep reeling wretched memories over and over again.Or,Come up with another bar,Further entrapping emotions trying to keep me from being sober in this,Labyrinth with walls made of glass.See-through walls in the mind of my inner child,While I search... Continue Reading →
I yelled for help! You noticed, And, Because of you I didn't drown. You pulled me off the ledge, And, Helped me find a simple smile... You may not understand, But, As soon as an outcast like myself leaves his domicile? All you see are demons who believe it's worth while, To poke fun and... Continue Reading →
Laying it all out on a page is rough when draft beers aren’t handy anymore.Trying to breathe and be a better person,But,There is barely any oxygen where I lay my head at night,While pondering my true feelings buried underneath the surface,Of my ailing heart.How,I’ve been crying while this world points and laughs at my pain... Continue Reading →
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