"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
An empty gas tank tends to form me into a languid bibliotaph uninterested in reading any stort falling into my lap,Too weak to bear the weight of.It isn't like it was years ago,Where I'd fight in urgency when dealing with an energy bar running low.Nowadays,I'd rather put my controller down,Accept my losses,And,See what tomorrow brings... Continue Reading →
Promises...I'm exhausted with,Making what I shouldn't keep while I'm lost in this,Thought process I've been trying to escape at all costs...Will it,Burn me alive,As I gas out and crash from being so sleep-deprived?Only God knows.All I know,Is the hard time I've been having,As I arrange a flow pattern,Used to depict a disaster,That couldn't be stopped... Continue Reading →
Maybe,I'm still scarred because of the way you left me.How stone-faced you were in sight of my tears.How happy you were to tell me,"I don't love you anymore,"While I was shattering into pieces right in front of you.Maybe,That's why I mistreat a body I'd rather not be inside of on most days.Because of your delight... Continue Reading →
Wind,As Icy as Her heart,Burns through each vein as I inhale,Exhale.Her departure was like,Being excommunicated by the Only One I've had faith in,With exoneration as far as a horizon I glare towards,Keeping distance with every step taken forward… Moments like these,I ask myself,Why not die and wipe the slate clean?Reborn with a touch not knowing... Continue Reading →
Haunted by a ghostly voice that just won't go away,No matter what I do to silence it.Vibrant it is!But,I keep writing it in,Within a line in my,Wrists.Bleeding from every vein slice open in thought of what couldn't be imagined in,A million years… What does it want?What does it say?It doesn't matter either way.I refuse to... Continue Reading →
So many mistakes.Only one to blame.The man I'm forced to see in the mirror,Every.Single.Day… Will I ever make it out of this hole,Will I ever fully change?From,A frown that feels permanent,To,An everlasting smile on my face? I…Don't know.I hope so,But,There are only a miles ahead hope can ever go towards… Forward!I march on.Regardless of how... Continue Reading →
Purging my mind of your memory is a necessity.Although a lovely woman you were with much for me to be thankful for,Thinking of you is like,Dipping my feet into quicksand.Sand liquified by the Earth shattering beneath me that moment I,Found out how you had never loved me from our very first kiss.A kiss of death... Continue Reading →
Beef patties in a microwave for under a minute,What happens?Kind of what you're abandonment did to me.Left me in a searing rage,With a heart colder than Winter's Sea.But,Shame on my lack of vision in all honesty.Because,You've never really smiled when looking my way.You just,Looked down on me,Somberly… Yet,I understand,Dad.Because I've disappointed myself by leaving my... Continue Reading →
So.For the last 8 years of my life,I haven't heard many say "Happy Birthday,"Not a single "Happy New Years,"Haven't gotten a single phone call.Not a single message trying to check if I've been holding on,Strong… I've just…Been a struggling soul for others to be entertained by while littered,By promises I was convinced were sweet,Yet,Went bitter.How... Continue Reading →
I must accept it because it's what God wants.I want to be a baller,A player,But,That wasn't God's call.I tried to hang it up!But,God looked at me and said,"You will not fall!"Any longer…
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