"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
I miss my mother on some nights,Especially,When I strike out with women my heart chooses to center in a shrine of love I've now abandoned.Nowadays,I can't fathom the thought of dying alone,But,I'm trying to with how desensitized I am by the rejections I've grown accustomed to.What does my heart have to lose?Even mom hates me,Although,I... Continue Reading →
An epiphany was had by the time I laid my head back down before going in for my double shifts at work for the weekend:"What will I ever gain by overworking a voice growing tired of speaking what someone,Somewhere may need to hear when they've grown too weary?"Rest.Pacing myself.Is what I've needed more than an... Continue Reading →
Lately,All of my poems have been getting shorter.There's just not much to say having the same pot of rice and beans everyday.Feeling my bones tremble a bit longer as I hold the weight of my loneliness on my shoulders.What else is there to mention besides the gargantuan stake piercing through my gut everyday I wake... Continue Reading →
You think you like what you like,Until you witness the kind of love within a family only your body,And,Soul can create with another unlike yourself.It wasn't until I laid eyes on a bond that couldn't be broken,Even if they'd try their hardest,Where my confusion trickled out of my eyes in streams of tears I found... Continue Reading →
A bird who fell from a nest on a tree as high as the sin humans keep,On a pedestal most desire to fill in with shimmering gold.A bird learning to flap its wings by itself as the hurricane becomes stronger,And,Stronger.A bird who flies away from any flock it comes across for the kind of solace... Continue Reading →
An empty gas tank tends to form me into a languid bibliotaph uninterested in reading any stort falling into my lap,Too weak to bear the weight of.It isn't like it was years ago,Where I'd fight in urgency when dealing with an energy bar running low.Nowadays,I'd rather put my controller down,Accept my losses,And,See what tomorrow brings... Continue Reading →
Promises...I'm exhausted with,Making what I shouldn't keep while I'm lost in this,Thought process I've been trying to escape at all costs...Will it,Burn me alive,As I gas out and crash from being so sleep-deprived?Only God knows.All I know,Is the hard time I've been having,As I arrange a flow pattern,Used to depict a disaster,That couldn't be stopped... Continue Reading →
Maybe,I'm still scarred because of the way you left me.How stone-faced you were in sight of my tears.How happy you were to tell me,"I don't love you anymore,"While I was shattering into pieces right in front of you.Maybe,That's why I mistreat a body I'd rather not be inside of on most days.Because of your delight... Continue Reading →
Wind,As Icy as Her heart,Burns through each vein as I inhale,Exhale.Her departure was like,Being excommunicated by the Only One I've had faith in,With exoneration as far as a horizon I glare towards,Keeping distance with every step taken forward… Moments like these,I ask myself,Why not die and wipe the slate clean?Reborn with a touch not knowing... Continue Reading →
Haunted by a ghostly voice that just won't go away,No matter what I do to silence it.Vibrant it is!But,I keep writing it in,Within a line in my,Wrists.Bleeding from every vein slice open in thought of what couldn't be imagined in,A million years… What does it want?What does it say?It doesn't matter either way.I refuse to... Continue Reading →
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