"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Let go,Let go,Let go...Why must I do so?Why can't I have one bodily desire that doesn't equate to fool's gold?Desires that wouldn't blind my eyes from the value love brings,Till I'm too broken to pay for sins more than a few know?All I want is a one night stand,Some booze,And,A few rolls of weed until... Continue Reading →
My first birthday completely sober from any substance!What can I say?I'm grateful for the walk God put me on instead of staying slumped in,A ditch I thought I'd never climb out of after tripping over so many bumps on a road where running is not an option.A road where a slow pace wins the race... Continue Reading →
Sobriety feels like a knife being stuck in the middle of my palms,During nights where my soul isn't calm.How badly I want a drink,Or a smoke,I cannot describe while I dive into past poems I wrote,As a reminder to never give up… Giving up on myself is the last thing I desire!But,I can't help but... Continue Reading →
I pray everything has been well with everyone out there. Had to take a second out of my day and pour my thoughts onto a waterproof page. Finally, over three months off of weed smoke and it feels so good! But, lately, I've been having consecutive dreams where I would come across a pack or... Continue Reading →
Cleaning up an act upstaging each demon on your shoulder,Is a war not everyone is built for,As it takes a different kind of strength to keep living life sober.I mean,Look around you!Why wouldn't you want a drink with what's happening all over?… Presidents who were not designed to lose.Orchestrated tragedies to blind us from the... Continue Reading →
What is the point of me still being alive when I hold no connection to any living thing?Literally.All I do is wake up.Contemplate my vices,How I should quit them as I proceed to clean my face and room for my daily sit down with weed in one hand and,A heart full of pain regardless of... Continue Reading →
Attempted to die today,But,Failed miserably.And,It's not because people have been sick of me.It's not because my family hates me,I hate them equally.It's because,I'm tired of reaching up to God while crying for his presence hysterically.Just…Another day where I feel like the Lord wants nothing to do with my life,While I sit back,Break my sobriety with... Continue Reading →
Only two more days,And…I feel as if I'm holding on for dear life.Startled,Of all things,But…I only have one goal in sight… Sobriety.So elusive,Yet,So close to me everywhere I go as long as I choose to,Lose it.Dispose of it instead of using it,For managing a Molotov of emotions by setting on fire with every flick of... Continue Reading →
I want to be better than I’ve ever been.And,Every time I smoke I’m fallen after taking every hit.Boxed in by a sedative alleviating nothing but my readiness,To burn a bridge only leading me into a Hell I’m in.Meant for a soul dead of any light no matter where you look inside of itDespite of its... Continue Reading →
Gratitude,For this second chance in life God allowed me to receive,Even if my wounds are still bleeding,Profusely.Why?Because,It is all in our minds,The Pain we cry!Over…I just couldn’t see that truth till I began to move forward,And,Love myself enough to,Get sober… Thank you,God!
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