"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
"Get up!"My mind yells yet,Can't find the motivation to rise fast enough.I don't know why,Nor do I care to find out.I'm exhausted from trying to find a reason to move forward.I just…Want to jump to my feet,And,Wash my face without contemplating why I'm even awake,Asking myself If I'll ever be happy again or,If I'll ever... Continue Reading →
Limping your way past the wire is vastly superior to,Never making it at all.Whether you're parasitic or a hermit,Recluse,Prying eyes and ears aren't worth bawling over while you crawl,In pain,With so much to lose… Yea,So what if there is no one cheering for you on the sidelines?Life is not a sport!At any second,You might die,And,Get... Continue Reading →
Some nights I,Just don't know what to write down.All I can think about,Is how perplexed I am while sitting on a chair,At a job,Wondering why I've been avoiding every crowd,I can be in front of… Yet,I'm a bit aware of the answer.Because,I'm embarrassed from the mounds of ruin,I've brought upon a life over vices so... Continue Reading →
A steak fry is still a fry.A steak nugget is still a piece of steak.Never will it matter how they're both dressed on a plate,Cracked and soon to break.From it's weight.More than your aching stomach's meant to handle,While you laugh at the possibility of blacking out and,Falling on your face.Stuff your mouth all you want,Not... Continue Reading →
I pray everything has been well with everyone out there. Had to take a second out of my day and pour my thoughts onto a waterproof page. Finally, over three months off of weed smoke and it feels so good! But, lately, I've been having consecutive dreams where I would come across a pack or... Continue Reading →
So many mistakes.Only one to blame.The man I'm forced to see in the mirror,Every.Single.Day… Will I ever make it out of this hole,Will I ever fully change?From,A frown that feels permanent,To,An everlasting smile on my face? I…Don't know.I hope so,But,There are only a miles ahead hope can ever go towards… Forward!I march on.Regardless of how... Continue Reading →
Three months into sobriety from marijuana and I cant believe it. But, as proud as I am from deciding not to encase every grin away behind a curtain of smoke, I still feel trapped. Recently, I began a new job hoping I can eventually pay off my college debt to go back to school. My... Continue Reading →
The same, the same, the same, the same, the same! That's just how it's been for the past few weeks and it's driving me insane. I may have reached two months without smoking marijuana, but something is still missing. A part of myself still seems to be AWOL without ever wanting to come back… All... Continue Reading →
It's just like me!To start something and put it off until the next.It's not surprising!How I'm already starting over with Day 1,Again.I challenged myself to write Poetry everyday,But,It became another promise my own demons sentenced to,Death… Nonetheless,I'm still trying.I'm still writing up another line,Hard enough to punch through each wall in my head.Not many choices... Continue Reading →
Stars twinkle emphatically the darker it gets,Glowing mightily in response to your signals of distress.Their sounds of silence speak louder than thoughts disturbed by past trauma I still cry over!But…My cheeks still refuse to grin in light of Breath,Flowing through my body as I'm knocked to ground,Face down,While cushioned by a chest I believed to... Continue Reading →
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