"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Three months into sobriety from marijuana and I cant believe it. But, as proud as I am from deciding not to encase every grin away behind a curtain of smoke, I still feel trapped. Recently, I began a new job hoping I can eventually pay off my college debt to go back to school. My... Continue Reading →
The same, the same, the same, the same, the same! That's just how it's been for the past few weeks and it's driving me insane. I may have reached two months without smoking marijuana, but something is still missing. A part of myself still seems to be AWOL without ever wanting to come back… All... Continue Reading →
It's just like me!To start something and put it off until the next.It's not surprising!How I'm already starting over with Day 1,Again.I challenged myself to write Poetry everyday,But,It became another promise my own demons sentenced to,Death… Nonetheless,I'm still trying.I'm still writing up another line,Hard enough to punch through each wall in my head.Not many choices... Continue Reading →
Stars twinkle emphatically the darker it gets,Glowing mightily in response to your signals of distress.Their sounds of silence speak louder than thoughts disturbed by past trauma I still cry over!But…My cheeks still refuse to grin in light of Breath,Flowing through my body as I'm knocked to ground,Face down,While cushioned by a chest I believed to... Continue Reading →
Earth is Hell. For a lot of us. I don't know about you, but I'm tired of waking up, at all. I'm tired of reawakening into a world where I know the kind of help I need will not be given. I'm tired of reawakening to the reality that I'm completely alone in a wasteland... Continue Reading →
Waking up everyday knowing that no one will ever just, say Hi, is probably the toughest reality to wake up to. From what I've seen, rich or poor, Loneliness is powerful enough to devour your entire soul, spitting it back out onto concrete where the sun shines the brightest. A beast I've known too well,... Continue Reading →
Lately, It's been hard to write anything. Overthinking till my mind overflows with a sea of memories I drown into, Fatally. Because, A piece of me dies each time I dip my feet inside of it. A sea colder than the heart of a mother who gave up on her son too early despite of... Continue Reading →
Guess what…I might of explored,Ashamed of my past while all I wanted was a friend.But,I guarantee,That if your girl spent a night with me,She wouldn't want to go back with you again!And,I'm not even a player,Player.I've just been sitting on the bench observing others lacking taste women can savor,Shooting their shot!To be bricked when they're... Continue Reading →
Sunnier days have been looming ahead as I sit down and pour out my anxiety on to a notepad (unfortunately digital as I prefer the real thing, but too lazy I am today). I've been able to smile more regardless of any tumultuous situation. After trying to speed through life in my past days, knowing... Continue Reading →
The past me is outdated.Stuck having dinners with Mary Jane and His demons while feeling jaded.Jaded by the race against time and how unworthy he has been to ever be embraced,By anyone as His inner child cries for love He yearns to give away… It’s a shame,Really…Because,He’s beyond amazing!Carries many flaws,But,Believe me,He’s begot a state... Continue Reading →
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