"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Enjoying life without an audience has been tumultuous lately.Why?Knowing how lonely I like to be,I find myself around more people while having a harder time to breathe.Sort of like,Demons closing in on me,Without a weapon to push back an attack only I can see,Inside of my head.How exhausting...How exhausted I am,To even wake and pick... Continue Reading →
Everything else is better than sex,Drugs,Alcohol,Whatever gets you high for that matter.Back when they were all I thought about,My reality had shattered.Anytime I looked into a mirror,I was cracked further away from repair,Every second I stared into a man I believed wasn't there,Any longer...Anytime I hear glasses cling,As a sober man nowadays,It's music to my... Continue Reading →
Multilingual,Yet there's something about American soil that strips you of everything that makes you colorful.What started out as spanish became spanglish,Then english I was verbally trained to use as a weapon towards freedom I've never had before."Callate la boca!"Mom would yell at me for having any thought of my own.It wasn't until I understood what... Continue Reading →
She wants me,She wants me not.Question is,Do I even want her as I break free from the lock,She's had on my mind?...
Memorial Day's upon us,And,All I can think about is the last time I received 'time and a half'.Nothing else to expect,Besides a job where my heart's split right down its middle.One side in front of a microphone at an open mic,The other in back of a desk where I sit back,And,Force myself to write.But,Regardless of... Continue Reading →
Several days,No response.Yet,They still post,Anyway.No body language indicating whether or not you scared them away.God-forbid you write back,"Hey,Is everything okay?"Or else,You'll be labeled 'too cingy',Too convincingly,After being hooked into a lie too exhausting to face,Over,And,Over again.Connections being possible for a man others write off as a reason to laugh at His expense...Nonerheless,God gave me enough... Continue Reading →
I don't believe I'll ever experience true love,Again.Maybe,I'm bound to die alone,Withering away inside of a casket pigeons try their best to pick at.But,I can't help it.Lost,Is the art of catching a woman's attention.Still the same man as I used to be,Yet,Not as handsome as others found me years ago.What happened?...Why am I no good?...Earlier... Continue Reading →
Thunderstorms are relaxing for a heart hardened by an infinite amount of rocks thrown.Being pelted by unwarranted barbs on a daily basis,Was enough to numb my soul to the pain.Barbs thrown by those who loved me for every show I put on until the curtains closed.Those comments I over-heard when standing on the other side,Whether... Continue Reading →
A "normie,"A clown,And,A gay girl walk into a bar.The clown,Along the gay girl sat away from the normie who would rather sit alone while writing a bar.Both were examining his posture,His choice of apparel,And,Were appalled.How he didn't look like they did without being close-minded to what differed from the law,Of a land he never thought... Continue Reading →
"Normie!"Is what I was called on my way out of a bar,How pretentious.Obnoxious.I thought,With all that's going on in a world going cold,Heartwarming it would be to interact with a world that prides itself on kindness!How thoughtless.To insult me without knowing who I am,What my views are darkened by certain hues marred by monsters with... Continue Reading →
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