"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
I miss my mother on some nights,Especially,When I strike out with women my heart chooses to center in a shrine of love I've now abandoned.Nowadays,I can't fathom the thought of dying alone,But,I'm trying to with how desensitized I am by the rejections I've grown accustomed to.What does my heart have to lose?Even mom hates me,Although,I... Continue Reading →
Seeking asylum,Isn't what I thought it was as I'm reaching for my blunt,Going insane while I'm leaning on my guts,From the astral plane when I get high up,Out of my body with bodies in my mind trying to get violent,Anything for some silence...At least it's how I feel nowadays.Mayday!I scream internally as I'm on a... Continue Reading →
"Shut your mouth!"Is what I yell in my mind after a word salad I'm exhausted of eating anytime I'm hungry for change.I can't really blame anyone for what I put on my plate.After every ounce of turmoil I've been served,I know better than to whip up a dish worth throwing to the curb.But,I eat it... Continue Reading →
Shirts tucked in mattered more than my glaring depression in middle school.More visits were paid to the principle's office than the arms I needed to assure my mind that my life would turn out okay to say the least.The only solution that was thought to be best was to tie my legs,Whipped until I followed... Continue Reading →
An apartment.An instrument.An encounter before I had the chance to lay eyes on her.Is what he has that I don't.He made her heart sing before I could've.He laid her down on a bed with nothing around,But,The keys to a heart mine desires to open and mesh with.If only...If only destiny brought us together in time,Before... Continue Reading →
Criticism's hard to receive,When you already have a clear vision of how you see,Yourself on a stage full of imposters.Imposters seeking medicine of all kinds to doctor the character they've chosen to be!But,I just ignore it while I foster what works for me.Being myself despite of the cost hurting no one,Besides those full of jealousy,I'll... Continue Reading →
To be,Or not to be?Is never the question now that I am.I've accepted how God molded me into the writer I was hesitant to be.No matter how nervous I was at the Monday mic,I pulled through.Tuesday was a hit and miss,But,Two mics on a Wednesday gave me the spark to tear each house down.Thursday's set... Continue Reading →
Stains.Cuts.Bruises.All represent your will to persevere through it all.Every night you've bawled,From the thought of everyone leaving you during your toughest moments.Every night you've stepped on a stage while heckled by the hopeless.Every morning you've went to work no matter how much you've despised a job paying for each show,And,A meal your closest friends weren't... Continue Reading →
Shapes,Sizes are all different,But,I still sense the same spirit within,Each body blocking my vision,From noticing the possibility to live life without her.Models in their own right representing who I truly desire without a doubt,Searching through the curves of another hoping it's her I encounter.Yet,It never works,Does it?All I'm left with are mannequins possessing a touch... Continue Reading →
No more hiding...No more will I use ink,Besides blood flowing on this page from my wounded body.Lacerations I must reveal hoping others see,And,Save themselves from suffering the same fate.Because,There's enough pain pulsating across a spirit we're all bound to feel,And,I'd rather lead others down a path where they can heal...If I must die alone,Then,So be... Continue Reading →
