"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
The same, the same, the same, the same, the same! That's just how it's been for the past few weeks and it's driving me insane. I may have reached two months without smoking marijuana, but something is still missing. A part of myself still seems to be AWOL without ever wanting to come back… All... Continue Reading →
Delusions of grandeur is something I promise myself to never fall back into regardless of where my life stands at any period in time. It's something I hope never poisons the heart of anyone with intentions to love others around them even when it stings most. Because, with how much darkness every ounce of delusion... Continue Reading →
A vigilante I became when teetering on the precipice of death.When surrounded by lawlessness,I've gone on a quest to enforce it regardless of what is said.About a warrior born within a soul withering from cowardice put to rest,The second I realized how,Alone I was in a room full of mortals I saw as mere pantomimes…... Continue Reading →
Twenty days without smoking Mary Jane. What an accomplishment for a man like me who couldn't stop smoking until a tragedy happened. But, at this point, I'm just confused. So, so confused as to how I'm supposed to be living my life. Friends? I would love some. Family? I already have, but I feel like... Continue Reading →
At this point,I know I'll never find love again.I mean,I'm boring with a tendency to repent for my sins after gaining some sense,On what's more important in life.And,Most women I've encountered aren't into that… Especially,If you're a broken man!Like me.With zero dollars in a bank account to seize.Living with family that aren't family to me... Continue Reading →
Family.What is it good for and why are we stuck with individuals we may never get along with?I don't know about you,But,Being related to a crack-head is not a fun fact you claim without tasting a bit of vomit.Never is it any fun to be forced to stay awake because of their constant nonsense.You know,Getting... Continue Reading →
Love.What does love become in a world where Good and Evil have switched sides?In a world where,It's light blinds,Revealing every path you shouldn't take?Concealing every blessing in your hands,As darkness illuminates your hidden pain… Love.Just,Why do I push it back into its resting place?When all I want is for Love to come my way… Seems... Continue Reading →
Divine interventions illuminated truths I thought would never be.Like,Family broken by vice and dark synergies.Sitting alone in a room knowing I'm hated while sifting through memories,I'm begging to black out… But,It never works.You know…Rolling blunts,Floating up on a cloud!Trying to get away from demons following your path every you go…Just for it to fade!While you... Continue Reading →
Attempted to die today,But,Failed miserably.And,It's not because people have been sick of me.It's not because my family hates me,I hate them equally.It's because,I'm tired of reaching up to God while crying for his presence hysterically.Just…Another day where I feel like the Lord wants nothing to do with my life,While I sit back,Break my sobriety with... Continue Reading →
"Family, what is it good for?" Is what I find myself asking after being forced to wake up by sounds of death and depression produced by the void of my youngest relative's heart made of stone with malic acid for tears. For starters, disappointed I am in myself for still living under the roof of... Continue Reading →
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