How's it like to be normal?Don't really know what that's like.Others smile,Others hug,Others wave and say "Hi!"I,Pat myself in the back and move forward.I,Thank God anytime I see humans love one another,I...Just don't really know what a hug even feels like,Anymore...
Isn’t it scary?How other’s label one’s search for love as,A victim’s mentality?What if,I just needed a hug no matter how glad I am to be,Me?What if,I just needed the company of a friend,Instead of,The company of my demons?... Nonetheless,I move on.With the power of God.Because,Each and every time I cry,God never fails to give me... Continue Reading →
Being distant was already a quality in some of us way before any pandemic.Being home every day,From day to night,Whether dark or light,Is what broken hearts already do!And,They’re as common as,The next lie America knows!You will believe,While you label it “true”… With so many realities unable to be faced,I see why so many wear a... Continue Reading →
Talking to other people is harder than it looks.Especially,When you’re devoured by a need to change whether it be,Your current scenery,That same t-shirt you’ve worn for the past 4,5 days,Or,Buying Sensodyne instead of Colgate after running out of toothpaste… “Hi!How are you?” “I’m doing good/great,I woke up today!” Really?Are you really doing good,Or,Just ignoring all... Continue Reading →
I yelled for help! You noticed, And, Because of you I didn't drown. You pulled me off the ledge, And, Helped me find a simple smile... You may not understand, But, As soon as an outcast like myself leaves his domicile? All you see are demons who believe it's worth while, To poke fun and... Continue Reading →
Alive,Yet,Dead.For good reason... How,Why?Well,What else is there for a lonely man yearning to be a better man inside... A reconnection with a spirit forsook by my inner child,Is what I desire!So,I'm not really here.What you read?Is another stitch to an open wound riveting in pain most find,Dear...
Writer's Block! Only place I’d ever want to be in.From the second I wake up after surfing through the deep end!Of a dream I see within,My pupils when I close them with a good reason,As God chooses to begin writing up an epilogue of a life I,Was purposefully given,No matter how many times Mother claimed... Continue Reading →
"You are not a man..." The response my dad gave my Mother when told of my future plans.Never really there,Just,Plotting on making his next buck inside his trusty ole' cab.Driving throughout New York City,Stressed from all his bidding,For a woman who would rather see me dead than existing,He made sure to take a look at... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I look inside of my bathroom mirror,And wonder if I do look like them,The scorn and tyrant,Culprits of my inception… When I gaze upon their actions inside of my mind,I run away and immediately open my eyes… After watching belts and wires being cauterized into my skin continuously,Deprived of a much needed hug and... Continue Reading →
Turn the phone off, clean up your space, wear your best smile, t-shirt and disappear! At least, it's what my brain's been telling me to do for the past few days. And, there is not a single reason I can find convincing me otherwise within a heart yearning to deliquesce into an ocean of Love... Continue Reading →