"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
A steak fry is still a fry.A steak nugget is still a piece of steak.Never will it matter how they're both dressed on a plate,Cracked and soon to break.From it's weight.More than your aching stomach's meant to handle,While you laugh at the possibility of blacking out and,Falling on your face.Stuff your mouth all you want,Not... Continue Reading →
I pray everything has been well with everyone out there. Had to take a second out of my day and pour my thoughts onto a waterproof page. Finally, over three months off of weed smoke and it feels so good! But, lately, I've been having consecutive dreams where I would come across a pack or... Continue Reading →
So many mistakes.Only one to blame.The man I'm forced to see in the mirror,Every.Single.Day… Will I ever make it out of this hole,Will I ever fully change?From,A frown that feels permanent,To,An everlasting smile on my face? I…Don't know.I hope so,But,There are only a miles ahead hope can ever go towards… Forward!I march on.Regardless of how... Continue Reading →
Sunnier days have been looming ahead as I sit down and pour out my anxiety on to a notepad (unfortunately digital as I prefer the real thing, but too lazy I am today). I've been able to smile more regardless of any tumultuous situation. After trying to speed through life in my past days, knowing... Continue Reading →
Finally!Finally,Finally.Surrounded by the kind of nature that loves to tell a story.Leaves of paper bound to a spine strong enough to endure what broke mine.Reminders of what life can be like if I just,Walk away from what wants to efface my existence on a planet I've grown weary of.All I wonder is,What's next?While my hands... Continue Reading →
"You're not alone!You're lovedYou're-" Sick of such a cliché thought anytime I reach out for a hand full of love.Love I know I've needed,But,Can't find the more I search for it in some weed and,A thought killing me the more I think about it as I lay down,Speechless… I mean,Why shouldn't I?Why shouldn't I join... Continue Reading →
Sometimes,All a person wants is to be acknowledged.With love and open arms from someone they've known for the longest.But,Life seems to go on without a single thought for me.Not a single person in my life that calls me to say,"Hi!How are you?Just to see how I am doing.Not a single hug to keep me from... Continue Reading →
What is life anymore?Is it a course of torment for the souls who mourn rest for most of their weary days?Or,Is there something at the end of our tunnels,Virtually endless,As we crawl on bleeding knees while laughed at for,Cringing in pain...Too hard to tell nowadays...
"Brush the dirt off of your shoulders! Can't do nothin' else!" Others would tell me as frequently as possible, even if their shoulders are stained worse than mine can ever be. But, as much as I despise the phrase, I do regardless of what I am told. With hands still cut open by the jagged... Continue Reading →
Maybe that is why I've been having such a hard time.Feelings of rejection by an entire world I often despise,Yet,Love with all of my heart no matter how much I cry.I need someone to hug,But,I'm just not loved enough.What does one do when in need of the human touch,While labeled unworthy of it all because... Continue Reading →
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