"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Got to stay cool…Got to stay calm…Nowadays,When I'm on the move,I try to sing a different song.A different tune my head can bop along to.Lost…I have been!But,If I was being honest?It isn't so bad if you keep your mind off it!You know…Everything you dwell about from the top,Of the morning,Even if your inner child's yelling,"Stop... Continue Reading →
Only two more days,And…I feel as if I'm holding on for dear life.Startled,Of all things,But…I only have one goal in sight… Sobriety.So elusive,Yet,So close to me everywhere I go as long as I choose to,Lose it.Dispose of it instead of using it,For managing a Molotov of emotions by setting on fire with every flick of... Continue Reading →
Words have been hard to find lately.I've been angry,With no one to hug while armed with a joint baking,In the middle of a palm I'm trying my best to take back control of before,I need anymore saving than I already do.A palm that once did everything I commanded it without question!But,Now it won't listen unless... Continue Reading →
Sometimes,All I can do is sit down and stare into space with a face more blank than a canvas painters are afraid to touch.Feel pinned against a wall with a dagger as big as my list of mistakes throughout the last three years of my pathetic existence.Seemingly possessed by a vengeful spirit too exhausted to... Continue Reading →
What is this feeling rotting inside each pit of my mangled soul,Where hot lava flows,Dropping all along a set of bones,Refusing to erode?… I don't think I'll ever know.Because,It flows in different currents,And.It's been reoccurring,During phases distinct from each other in a life I haven't been sure of,For the last several years… A guaranteed misery!Pondering... Continue Reading →
Have gotten closer towards my goal,But,It keeps moving up a few feet.I mean,How many times can I relay the same problem,Until I drop!As everybody strays away from a race we take part in,Exhaustively? Maybe once,Twice,Or thrice,But,Anything past three is pushing an envelop sealed shut with motor gasoline.You'd need an extra gear to speed past a... Continue Reading →
I wouldn't know where to start after fasting for 24 hours straight regardless of how hellbent I am to change my entire life.Because, no matter how angrily confused you've been for the past x amount of time, you'd think you'd know the beginning to a new life you've built inside of your mind already. You'd... Continue Reading →
What got me through a day of work?The possibility of killing myself after clocking out.Honestly,My only source of motivation as I'm nodding out every few seconds since it's taking everything I got in me!To…End the night,Without blood splatter in sight,Regardless of how desperate I am to,Die… What?Would you rather read the words of a liar... Continue Reading →
Beginnings we desire are always the hardest. Way more difficult they are than the ending our gut desires us to write and the Beginning it knows we have to write. But, the, heart? Nope. If anything it'll convince you to run away from your current circumstances and drown within murky waters of passivity. After all,... Continue Reading →
Alone in a world of wolves,And,I'm just a dog with bone that would.But,Why bark at a pack with ribs exposed to an eye that's full!Of hunger and rage,Left unsatisfied without slumber and grace.Salivating to revitalize my life by making up for many blunders and pain,Others felt from all of it… Accountability.The cost of pointing fingers... Continue Reading →
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