"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Another morning waking up doing what I did yesterday.Taking hits enduring all the pain while I circle around till I find a better way.A renegade since day one while I penetrate a state of mind keeping me in my lesser ways.They say it's impossible!They say for me to change is improbable,By being what you've been!But,All... Continue Reading →
Lately, I haven't been able to sit and write exactly how I've wanted to. So, I thought the only to get myself back to where I was once upon a time, I should just express how I'm feeling and what's been happening. I know the next cliché phrase or questions you'd hear is, "But, where... Continue Reading →
I guess I've been so disappointed in myself that,I could barely face my pen and pad,With intent to heal myself from a past I've,Chosen to rewind in my mind,Until I was shown a price I was forced to pay.My voice,Along side a silent mind was the cost,So,I had to pick a different choice.Between destroying every... Continue Reading →
Sepulchered within a heart of stone I am.All I'd wish for in the past?Is my memory to be revived inside the mind of a woman who passed me over to the woes of abandonment.Why?So that I can ask her this… "Why'd you leave me without a hand to hold on to?You knew the circumstance I... Continue Reading →
Their mouths were tainted by miasmata I vow to kill,Miasmata with no ability to sicken my vessel protected by God's Will.How?A question I cannot answer until…I rid myself of my own…Because,Weed smoke still subjugates my train of thought even if it is of a different kind,The kind that Mary Jane provides when you're lonely during... Continue Reading →
"Brush the dirt off of your shoulders! Can't do nothin' else!" Others would tell me as frequently as possible, even if their shoulders are stained worse than mine can ever be. But, as much as I despise the phrase, I do regardless of what I am told. With hands still cut open by the jagged... Continue Reading →
Enjoying anything in life is harder than it seems when,All you feel is dejection.Dejection others turn a blind eye toward regardless of affection they may have for you.How do I smile when watching a movie?How do I laugh at a joke I find funny without forcing it?How do I even eat food and feel satisfied... Continue Reading →
The past me is outdated.Stuck having dinners with Mary Jane and His demons while feeling jaded.Jaded by the race against time and how unworthy he has been to ever be embraced,By anyone as His inner child cries for love He yearns to give away… It’s a shame,Really…Because,He’s beyond amazing!Carries many flaws,But,Believe me,He’s begot a state... Continue Reading →
Quiet and observant!Is how one must be when you’re anything like me.Because,When you’re a man as lonely as I’ve been,Not only are you silenced,But!Deleted from society and its “toxic” environment,Where most spearhead a protest against those too vibrant!And,Alive in a city dead of hopes and dreams,Replaced by hope in dope and creeds misleading anyone with... Continue Reading →
Journaling my heart away becomes much more difficult as I keep struggling to stay silent.Sure,My soul loves to sit down and philosophize until sunrise,But,With all due respect to myself,What am I really doing?What can possibly be accomplished while I take another drag from a Joint full of lies and,Buds sparking memories exhausting a vessel asking... Continue Reading →
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