Valiant efforts are laid to waste,Nowadays,When I try to smile without forcing myself to.Sorrow tends to drown out my laughter any time I humor myself with a different hue.I can't seem to think of another color,Besides red,To use on a canvas where I picture myself dead…A truth I've tried to avoid regardless of any joy... Continue Reading →
Sweaty Palms
Maybe,My palms are hesitant to write every single day because,I fear my true feelings will keep driving others away like they've already done.So,Each time I sit up trying to encourage myself to write a poem,I just,Lay broken.Soaking my spirit in tears from not doing what my heart truly wants to do.And that's just…Sitting in silence.With... Continue Reading →
No More Chemtrails Interlude
Stalk me as much as you feel necessary.Waste as much time as possible living a life so sedentary.All you do is sit and watch my moves with a pocket filled with copper tunes,Jingles only addicts are familiar with while you pop a few,Pills if you don't feel like "crushing" your dreams at the moment.A vampire... Continue Reading →
Dead Soil
Desiring to change your environment simply means,You understand how it has no affect on you.It means that you care about yourself enough to be where ever there lies,Truth… Sleeping in a bed of lies is like,Being stuck inside of a web of nightmares you'll wrestle with for an eternity.Just,Another silky string buckling you down within... Continue Reading →
None Of It
Regrets?I have none.All I am is a human who's mad enough!To throw my lighter against a pavement stepped on by so many others wearing shoes soaked in butane while having nothing,To lose.And,I could've been a part of that group….Of arsonists as my soul was often set ablaze by what was never true…Mary Jane along side... Continue Reading →
Digress
No one likes to feel like they're in a therapy session.You want another to listen with open ears and simply understand the message,Being told against your own will telling you to bottle it inside until it explodes in your chest and,Pierces through your guard once thought to be unbreakable regardless of impact from any weapon... Continue Reading →
Blind Rage
Episodes of rage take over when sober from love.Drunk by the thought of her for so long,But,It's time to show a different me.A different flow of rhythm where I only act up on a stage for the world to see.No fear while I drop bombs from a palm deterring naysayers from my life,Praying everyone survives... Continue Reading →
Why Me?
"Why does it have to be me?" The question I ask when I walk down a street,Where my feet never feel welcomed.A beast in the eyes of each person I pass while I smile with a piece of me broken.And,Only I know what rattles inside of a mind I pray for,For the moment… No one... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 4 – Love Is Just, Love…
I don't even know why I love you!But,I do.Even after 5 years of us breaking up,As I try my best to live in my truths.How I wasn't perfect as a man drowned by his tears on the surface while surrounded by a noose!Or,What most would call family,Suffocating me when reaching out for a piece of... Continue Reading →
To The End!
"I love you!" A phrase medicinal in nature.One we all need to hear when our hearts favor pain buried in its own hollowed core.One I've needed to hear while the Devil keeps knocking on my door,Everyday I wake for a chance to even a score with myself.Opening a journal at some point during the day... Continue Reading →