"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
I miss my mother on some nights,Especially,When I strike out with women my heart chooses to center in a shrine of love I've now abandoned.Nowadays,I can't fathom the thought of dying alone,But,I'm trying to with how desensitized I am by the rejections I've grown accustomed to.What does my heart have to lose?Even mom hates me,Although,I... Continue Reading →
Regrets...What's the point of regretting what had to happen for you to learn your lesson?Would you be where you are now if it wasn't for each mistake set in place,By the inner child in your chest,Urging you to exit,The path you were destined to die in?I don't think so...The wind blows,Where you run towards.Trees are... Continue Reading →
Searching for profit through proper syntax,As a prophet without a lot to give back.It's hard enough to read a bible knowing I am not intact,But,I plan on breaking free from a spell through the whiplash,I receive from God's word while I sit back,And,Reminisce on mistakes I've made.Mistakes making the big man I've became,By accepting my... Continue Reading →
Birthdays.What are they for a recluse?Is celebration mandatory,Is it even an option?As every holiday zips by without any contact.You begin to question the meaning of your mistaken existence.But,What's the point knowing we all woke up,Suddenly,Without any knowledge of what life is exactly?I guess,Our lives come with meaning we must do our best to discover.A meaning... Continue Reading →
A band-aid can only hold on for so long.The wound may close up halfway after being worn after quite some time,But,Eventually,It'll be soaken entirely.Every corner discolored by a mistake too late to undo…Those who can't afford a replacement,What do they do?Bleed out until an infection occurs without any access to medicine?Surround themselves by doctors in... Continue Reading →
So many mistakes.Only one to blame.The man I'm forced to see in the mirror,Every.Single.Day… Will I ever make it out of this hole,Will I ever fully change?From,A frown that feels permanent,To,An everlasting smile on my face? I…Don't know.I hope so,But,There are only a miles ahead hope can ever go towards… Forward!I march on.Regardless of how... Continue Reading →
Beef patties in a microwave for under a minute,What happens?Kind of what you're abandonment did to me.Left me in a searing rage,With a heart colder than Winter's Sea.But,Shame on my lack of vision in all honesty.Because,You've never really smiled when looking my way.You just,Looked down on me,Somberly… Yet,I understand,Dad.Because I've disappointed myself by leaving my... Continue Reading →
Rapping was something I never thought I'd fall out of love with,But,I did.Too much time was spent wrapping my head around my existence,As dead is how I imagined it.Yet,Here I am rhyming words,Again,In a less reckless fashion more fitting for man with many chips,On two shoulders,Too exhausted,To keep holding on to weight equilibrated with,Each tear... Continue Reading →
Lately, I haven't been able to sit and write exactly how I've wanted to. So, I thought the only to get myself back to where I was once upon a time, I should just express how I'm feeling and what's been happening. I know the next cliché phrase or questions you'd hear is, "But, where... Continue Reading →
At least,I didn't lose my hands,My feet,Nor any other part of my body. At least,I didn't lose my pen,My journal,Nor my mind. Thank God!That,All I lost were ten dollars and not,My precious life… A life I care more for,Now,As I pay for the mistake I've wrought with endless tears falling from my,Eyes…
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