"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
I wouldn't know where to start after fasting for 24 hours straight regardless of how hellbent I am to change my entire life.Because, no matter how angrily confused you've been for the past x amount of time, you'd think you'd know the beginning to a new life you've built inside of your mind already. You'd... Continue Reading →
Meticulous in thought during moments my mind should be blank.Moments where my hands should be moving faster than a heart beat speeding up from a lack of funds,Gone away in smoke burning blunt after blunt.But,There's just so much pressure on my shoulders.Feels like the weight of everything I must do is crushing me as I... Continue Reading →
Squared up against a circle of people who I can only move forward from. Controlling my emotions are a must as I pray that my life doesn't spiral into a tornado of bitterness and hate without a single ounce of purpose to fill the void inside of my heart. Yet, even if I've acted more... Continue Reading →
Smoking weed isn’t as special as others make it seem like. After a while you’ll find yourself asking, “Can’t I be doing something better for myself right now?” Usually where I end up at the end up like this moment finishing my first blunt of the day. Feels like my personal demons manifested in the... Continue Reading →
All the noise stopped when I chipped a tooth pulling teeth to bring It to an end.This,Vortex of smoke I've spun inside of for too many years of my life,Chipping away at my flesh!Piece by piece.Making sure the torture is painful and slow.But,Not once do I wince as I endure the sting of Hell.As numb... Continue Reading →
Home feels like,An ash tray where we litter our bridges lit by the embers we ignite,Whether it's the sunshine or,Mary Jane wrapped in a sheet of anger you choose to let simmer and burn her… Left in the dust!Was I,Within a home I could never call my own,As my old soul grew aware of the... Continue Reading →
Change.It's what I've needed as I lost my two cents in regard to what I truly love.But, there isn't much I can do.My options?Continue forward as if I haven't been crying often or stay behind on every deadline I assign myself to produce a thought in the form of a poem until I, die.Die a... Continue Reading →
A heart like mine wouldn't budge for the demons rising in the name of my demise,Pumping out shot after shot from a set of fingers I write with vigilantly.I!Have jumped overboard willingly.Ties cut once choking me to death!Sick of each lie others love to wrap around my head... How they swear they'll never leave your... Continue Reading →
Been so full of fear lately,For reason I cannot explain yet.But,Can I eliminate it without knowing every answer to each question I ask myself way,Way too often?I only ask because,I've been trying to find them!And,Have continously failed,To no avail,Knowing that I've need help along my way...Reaching out my hand to others just,To watch more of... Continue Reading →
Although I feel empty,The crying winds of my ailing soul cool down my blood,Preventing from boiling over.Sure,Times are tough as I get through it without the human touch,But,Why not lift myself off of an edge while I still can?Before it's too late...With enough strength coursing through my body,I realize that I don't have to choose... Continue Reading →
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