"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Nobody loves me,But,I'm okay with knowing that.Because,God seems present in my life while gifting me a pen and pad.A pen and pad I could talk to any time I feel sad.A place where I could be honest.A place where I can admit how I want to die and get off this,Earth that doesn't feel like... Continue Reading →
Health is an oddity in my lonely life.Although I wake with energy surging through my finger tips,My legs are too fatigued to walk toward boxes of journals full of what could be the difference,In a life I don't feel is worth living anymore… Rather,What's left of me should be given to a soul who needs... Continue Reading →
Incase… Just in case this is the last opportunity I'll ever get to flush out a soul dirtied with bad memories I feel forced to remember above all else from the first second of each morning I don't want to wake. And, I get it. I'm blessed. To still have my family around. To still... Continue Reading →
Beginnings we desire are always the hardest. Way more difficult they are than the ending our gut desires us to write and the Beginning it knows we have to write. But, the, heart? Nope. If anything it'll convince you to run away from your current circumstances and drown within murky waters of passivity. After all,... Continue Reading →
Yes,I often think of suicide,But,Still have the courage to refuse such atrocity.Because,My life was given!It was never mine to take in the first place regardless of how many demons got to me… After all,It's my job to thwart them off of my shoulders.If I don't,I deserve every consequence that looms over my soul.If I coast... Continue Reading →
You can't imagine all the pain I brazenly bear while,Stigmatized as an animal who feeds off of despair.But,What others refuse to see?Is how I'm just a man growing sick and tired of apologies!Others never care to spare… So,I've isolated.Got to make sure to stay away from what would not embrace me while left forsaken.By family... Continue Reading →
No one ever knows which day is their last.For some of us,It is an attachment similar to a bungee jump beneath a bridge.Instead of losing yourself inside of shallow waters poured by the outcries of Anger you haven't dealt with,That rope of smoke grabs you just in time to pull you back onto the ledge,Until,You... Continue Reading →
"Basura.Pajarito.Worthless.A disgrace,The reason for your desired suicide…" Just a small portion of what you've said to me within the past couple of days.Do I forgive you?Yes!But,You?I must keep distant from before my life is ruined by your bitterness and hate.A word you directed at me with a smile till this day!Without any shame as you... Continue Reading →
Poetry comes back into my life, full circle, every time I'm squared by trials and tribulations I so desperately need to conquer. Regardless of two shins bruised by a maddening search for peace and tranquility through a field of burning coal, I anticipate the relief I'll feel as soon as I take that first step... Continue Reading →
I must accept it because it's what God wants.I want to be a baller,A player,But,That wasn't God's call.I tried to hang it up!But,God looked at me and said,"You will not fall!"Any longer…
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